well.
i really cant wait till monday. my mum is finally coming home after being in america for 2 months. i have a terrible feeling when she does come home, she will be as usual stressed with work :( *sigh i wish i could help her there. but i know i cant really. but before she left so much was going on in her office, restructure and moving offices. i saw how stressfull it was. how hectik it was. we went to the city one weekend cause my mum was working and she was there all day :(
but yea. im glad she's coming home, even though i get angry and impatient sometimes. im sorry for being disrespectfull and not appriciating you.even when you called home, to ask how everyone was. you always asked me if anyone was bothering me :L and i would always think yes! hahah but then you knew. already you had said yes. making me realise that you know how much i am alone at home, and that im picked on :( my dad and sister arent exactly the best company all the time. and well. i need you to stop them from saying things that hurt me, i feel so alone. no one standing up for me. sometimes i dnt have the strength to stand alone.. and yea. learing to accept that, it wasnt easy. every time i would get pissed so easliy, i really do get outa hand quickly. i just need to shut up cause i say too much..and im even sorry for that. its just that they dnt realise how it hurts me, or even how im sensitive to that. mainly that. but you know. even though we joke around and stuff, you understand what ive gone through. ofcourse. you know you are my main example. my main role model in life..for somethings more than others but yea. somethings are..well :/ uhh. but ohh well. im glad that even being on the other side of the world, you know that they contiune to say that stuff.. :( im glad you realise that.
thank you.
have a safe flight. dont forget anything in america. and next time, please take me with you!
<3