"make a WISH, place it in your HEART. anything you want. everything you want.
do you have it.. good. now BELIEVE it can come true. you never know where the next miracle is goign to come from, the next smile. the next wish come true.
but if you believe its right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it, you just might get the thing you're wishing for... the world is full of magic, you just have to believe in it. so make your wish..do you have it..good. now believe in it with all your heart.." ;)
..one tree hill <3
Monday, November 30, 2009
Friday, November 27, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
reflection
wow. its november, already!
mann this year has gone heaps fast, and even thought im glad its almost over. i regret so much, looking back through the events of this year, 2009 and even most things that happened towards, i wish i took it all in. while i had the chance..
i remember the beginning of the year so clearly, i really do.
first few weeks were a shocker, finding out i was in advance english and science, i felt so proud. and first few weeks of school, i was also missing my friend, vianca. who was still in the phils. half of term 1 went so slow, at least thats how i remember it.
haha. but jan, feb, march and april were awsome! :)
january; i dnt recall much happening, or wait.. i think i do?
febuary; it was vanessa's brithday, and omg we went ice skating, hehe. my first time and omg it was awsome! so much fun. haha. i wna go again!
march; angel's brithday and dnt remember what else.
april; abby's bday and also i went to queensland, and ohh. haha i saw vanessa there :)
...
a lot happened alright. lol. okay. fine. in my head i remember most of it anyways, and i really miss it. so much happened this year, a lot of complications? :/ but i guess its also whats makes this year so unique? somethings i want and i try to forget, but i just cant.. ehh, oh well.
so the year went on, most days were better than others, i remember those days so clearly, lmao. still remember half of my friends doing 40 hour famine, woo. most of us finished ;) i did. hehe. mann its not easy, not one bit. haha.
.. those days, i wish i appriciated them more, because, well. i havent felt, idno. i jst fel a tad different now.. ? its hard to explain. i feel normal, but then looking back theres always that something more i want? lol. kinda hard, i dnt even understand myself.
and then lyk last night, i stumbleed across this pic of one of my closest friends from primary, i miss her so much! lyk she is one crazy girl, laughs at almost anything. haha. i miss being around them, all my primary friends. no matter how hard i try, sometimes i just cant help but wish and think that i was still that close with them. we went through a lot together, and now its lyk that was all nothing? idno. i just wish we all kept in better touch, so it wouldnt be so hard. jst looking at those pics, seeing them, brings back so many memories. and i went through a lot in primary, to make friends and that. kinda lyk high school, only with less help, and it was way harder :(
but i dnt wna sound lyk i dnt appriciate the friends i have now, im not trying to say that at all. its justhard to bring back so many font memories, when now, it feels lyk thats all ive got..
lol. got kinda carried away there. sorry. and id better end it there. should get ready.
until next time <3
mann this year has gone heaps fast, and even thought im glad its almost over. i regret so much, looking back through the events of this year, 2009 and even most things that happened towards, i wish i took it all in. while i had the chance..
i remember the beginning of the year so clearly, i really do.
first few weeks were a shocker, finding out i was in advance english and science, i felt so proud. and first few weeks of school, i was also missing my friend, vianca. who was still in the phils. half of term 1 went so slow, at least thats how i remember it.
haha. but jan, feb, march and april were awsome! :)
january; i dnt recall much happening, or wait.. i think i do?
febuary; it was vanessa's brithday, and omg we went ice skating, hehe. my first time and omg it was awsome! so much fun. haha. i wna go again!
march; angel's brithday and dnt remember what else.
april; abby's bday and also i went to queensland, and ohh. haha i saw vanessa there :)
...
a lot happened alright. lol. okay. fine. in my head i remember most of it anyways, and i really miss it. so much happened this year, a lot of complications? :/ but i guess its also whats makes this year so unique? somethings i want and i try to forget, but i just cant.. ehh, oh well.
so the year went on, most days were better than others, i remember those days so clearly, lmao. still remember half of my friends doing 40 hour famine, woo. most of us finished ;) i did. hehe. mann its not easy, not one bit. haha.
.. those days, i wish i appriciated them more, because, well. i havent felt, idno. i jst fel a tad different now.. ? its hard to explain. i feel normal, but then looking back theres always that something more i want? lol. kinda hard, i dnt even understand myself.
and then lyk last night, i stumbleed across this pic of one of my closest friends from primary, i miss her so much! lyk she is one crazy girl, laughs at almost anything. haha. i miss being around them, all my primary friends. no matter how hard i try, sometimes i just cant help but wish and think that i was still that close with them. we went through a lot together, and now its lyk that was all nothing? idno. i just wish we all kept in better touch, so it wouldnt be so hard. jst looking at those pics, seeing them, brings back so many memories. and i went through a lot in primary, to make friends and that. kinda lyk high school, only with less help, and it was way harder :(
but i dnt wna sound lyk i dnt appriciate the friends i have now, im not trying to say that at all. its justhard to bring back so many font memories, when now, it feels lyk thats all ive got..
lol. got kinda carried away there. sorry. and id better end it there. should get ready.
until next time <3
isnt it just? ;)
hey bloggers :)
isnt it just..?
..
weird how one thing can cause so many reactions..?
..
sad how sometimes is feels lyk the more you try, the harder it gets?
..
i did have this post a while back. and i apollogise for not finishing it. sorry.
<3
isnt it just..?
..
weird how one thing can cause so many reactions..?
..
sad how sometimes is feels lyk the more you try, the harder it gets?
..
i did have this post a while back. and i apollogise for not finishing it. sorry.
<3
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
just a little thought ;)
A stranger stabs you in the front; A friend stabs you in the back; A boyfriend stabs you in the heart; but best friends only poke eachother with a straw :)
lol. just thought this was kinda true, in a way? haha of my little friend on facebook.
lol. just thought this was kinda true, in a way? haha of my little friend on facebook.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
time is lost
today made me realise something important..
last night my family and i went to cambelltown as it was my dads aunt and uncle's wedding anniversery. we went there to celebrate, haha i was the youngest one there, as always. but was heaps fun, all their children that were there were lyk 25-30 yrs old, but so much fun talking to them :L haha. and my dads anunt's mum and brother came on holiday from india, they came about 10 days ago? and this was the first time i met this aunty, from india. she was very sweet and quiet. haha. a very simple woman too, she didnt say much, but sitting there in the same room as me, watching tv. everyone else left and it was just the two of us, she looked at me and i have her a friendly smile. everyone else came and we all got talking :) really a lot of fun, and damm it was so hot! lyk really. they had a fan on but it was still so humid indoors so my second cousins and i went outside and got talking. the aunty, i think she went into her room. might have been tired?
we only got home at lyk 12.30am. pretty tiring. anyways today my family and i went for a munsimine mass? if thats how u spell it, the mass for the death of our family friend's father. it was very sad. and after that, on the way home, my mum called my dad's aunty, the one who lives in cambelltown and then she was talking to her, the conversation didnt sound too good. the aunty from india, well she was very sick, she was rushed into hospital :o i think she had a heartattack, but her heart and her kidneys were failing. and she couldnt breathe either. as soon as we got home, my mum and dad changed and drove to cambelltown, to be with my dads aunt and uncle, they all drove to the hospital. all the kids were there, my dads aunt was very upset at what was happening, so my mum came for support and to help out. my rents were there for hours, they came home and told us that the aunty was on life support, then later we got a call. she passed away :'( its scary to know, that only yesterday i met her, gave her a smile, and wished her goodbye, not even knowing that was the first and last time id see her.. :(
i didnt know that aunty at all, except that she was on my dad's side of the family. now my dads aunty and family would be greiving, due to this tragedy.. :( she was only on holiday, and now she wont be able to go back to india, will probably be burried in australia, due to the expenses of flying her home..
and then today at the munsimine mass, i was meant to read the prayers of the faithful with the grandchildren, who were 5 and 6. i didnt, but their mother did. and i sat infront of the church, and looked after my little man, he was just walking around the seats and stuff, i was standing next to my family friend, it was her father that had passed away, and she started crying and my little man dwayne, looked at her and smiled, it brightened his aunty, even though she was crying, and then i saw it in his eyes, dwayne may have only been a yr and a few months but he knew exactly, that his aunty was sad.. so he slowly walked away, still looking at his aunty, trying to work out why she was so sad.
one smile, can make such a big difference
and so, when you meet someone, or just bump into them. give them a friendly smile, you never know if ur gna see them again..?
last night my family and i went to cambelltown as it was my dads aunt and uncle's wedding anniversery. we went there to celebrate, haha i was the youngest one there, as always. but was heaps fun, all their children that were there were lyk 25-30 yrs old, but so much fun talking to them :L haha. and my dads anunt's mum and brother came on holiday from india, they came about 10 days ago? and this was the first time i met this aunty, from india. she was very sweet and quiet. haha. a very simple woman too, she didnt say much, but sitting there in the same room as me, watching tv. everyone else left and it was just the two of us, she looked at me and i have her a friendly smile. everyone else came and we all got talking :) really a lot of fun, and damm it was so hot! lyk really. they had a fan on but it was still so humid indoors so my second cousins and i went outside and got talking. the aunty, i think she went into her room. might have been tired?
we only got home at lyk 12.30am. pretty tiring. anyways today my family and i went for a munsimine mass? if thats how u spell it, the mass for the death of our family friend's father. it was very sad. and after that, on the way home, my mum called my dad's aunty, the one who lives in cambelltown and then she was talking to her, the conversation didnt sound too good. the aunty from india, well she was very sick, she was rushed into hospital :o i think she had a heartattack, but her heart and her kidneys were failing. and she couldnt breathe either. as soon as we got home, my mum and dad changed and drove to cambelltown, to be with my dads aunt and uncle, they all drove to the hospital. all the kids were there, my dads aunt was very upset at what was happening, so my mum came for support and to help out. my rents were there for hours, they came home and told us that the aunty was on life support, then later we got a call. she passed away :'( its scary to know, that only yesterday i met her, gave her a smile, and wished her goodbye, not even knowing that was the first and last time id see her.. :(
i didnt know that aunty at all, except that she was on my dad's side of the family. now my dads aunty and family would be greiving, due to this tragedy.. :( she was only on holiday, and now she wont be able to go back to india, will probably be burried in australia, due to the expenses of flying her home..
and then today at the munsimine mass, i was meant to read the prayers of the faithful with the grandchildren, who were 5 and 6. i didnt, but their mother did. and i sat infront of the church, and looked after my little man, he was just walking around the seats and stuff, i was standing next to my family friend, it was her father that had passed away, and she started crying and my little man dwayne, looked at her and smiled, it brightened his aunty, even though she was crying, and then i saw it in his eyes, dwayne may have only been a yr and a few months but he knew exactly, that his aunty was sad.. so he slowly walked away, still looking at his aunty, trying to work out why she was so sad.
one smile, can make such a big difference
and so, when you meet someone, or just bump into them. give them a friendly smile, you never know if ur gna see them again..?
(8) more than anyone..
a pretty cool song, from one tree hill. lol. ;)
na, really it is. well i think so. haha.
You need a friend
I'll be around
Don't let this end
Before I see you again
What can I say to convince you
To change your mind of me?
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna to love you more than anyone
Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together, baby
Free together, baby
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
more than anyone, Gavin Degraw
na, really it is. well i think so. haha.
You need a friend
I'll be around
Don't let this end
Before I see you again
What can I say to convince you
To change your mind of me?
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna to love you more than anyone
Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together, baby
Free together, baby
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
more than anyone, Gavin Degraw
Thursday, November 19, 2009
yes, another ;)
okay. im sorry its just that oth has got me thinking..
everyone has something unique and rememberable about them right? something that makes a difference..
well in one ep i watched today in oth. lucus, was dying. he had a heartattach due to his best friend being hit by a car, hist best friend, hayley was also pregnant..
anyways, wen he was unconcious he went with his late uncle keith. he died and keith was guiding lucus, showing him a life if he wanst nice. lucus is the guy everyone loves, everyone turns to for help and everyone trusts. he asked keith, whats the point of being nice? when all the nice people are always getting hurt. then keith showed him a life, a life where lucus wasnt nice..
lucus saw what this life was lyk and didnt like it one bit.. everyone was affected by lucus, for who he is. the nice guy.
without this nice lucus, the world was a bit darker, one of his dearest friends, and now one and only love, peyton dies, because of something lucus didnt do. but because he is the boy he was, she was saved, and peyton always says that to lucus.."you always save me.." and its true.
lucus saw so much more, it made him understand how being yourself, and not changing who you are because bad things may happen to good or nice people, you still leave a mark on the ones you love..
if u watch it, you'll understand what im talking about. i cant explain it that clearly so sorry. haha
and so that got me thinking..
what if i didnt smile? thats kinda selfish wouldnt it be? if i took that away from the world. and i no, i cant keep a straight face, guess thats a good thing right? but if something serious does happens, or a really am down or jst dno whats going on, then i dnt smile. or the worst times, when i just cant find a reason to smile.. but then theres always a reason to smile..
i tried not talking once, for a while at school. couldnt take it, and well, started talking again. you know what, i guess sometimes we jst need to be reminded i guess, of how much we are appriciated? how much we are loved and cared for, just lyk lucus realising how much he meant and did for everyone. you can really learn a lot.. more to say but idno.
i think sometimes we all should just see ourselves through someone elses eyes, so we know how people see you, because sometimes you cant even see it yourself? dnt undervalue yourself. just think first..?
<3
everyone has something unique and rememberable about them right? something that makes a difference..
well in one ep i watched today in oth. lucus, was dying. he had a heartattach due to his best friend being hit by a car, hist best friend, hayley was also pregnant..
anyways, wen he was unconcious he went with his late uncle keith. he died and keith was guiding lucus, showing him a life if he wanst nice. lucus is the guy everyone loves, everyone turns to for help and everyone trusts. he asked keith, whats the point of being nice? when all the nice people are always getting hurt. then keith showed him a life, a life where lucus wasnt nice..
lucus saw what this life was lyk and didnt like it one bit.. everyone was affected by lucus, for who he is. the nice guy.
without this nice lucus, the world was a bit darker, one of his dearest friends, and now one and only love, peyton dies, because of something lucus didnt do. but because he is the boy he was, she was saved, and peyton always says that to lucus.."you always save me.." and its true.
lucus saw so much more, it made him understand how being yourself, and not changing who you are because bad things may happen to good or nice people, you still leave a mark on the ones you love..
if u watch it, you'll understand what im talking about. i cant explain it that clearly so sorry. haha
and so that got me thinking..
what if i didnt smile? thats kinda selfish wouldnt it be? if i took that away from the world. and i no, i cant keep a straight face, guess thats a good thing right? but if something serious does happens, or a really am down or jst dno whats going on, then i dnt smile. or the worst times, when i just cant find a reason to smile.. but then theres always a reason to smile..
i tried not talking once, for a while at school. couldnt take it, and well, started talking again. you know what, i guess sometimes we jst need to be reminded i guess, of how much we are appriciated? how much we are loved and cared for, just lyk lucus realising how much he meant and did for everyone. you can really learn a lot.. more to say but idno.
i think sometimes we all should just see ourselves through someone elses eyes, so we know how people see you, because sometimes you cant even see it yourself? dnt undervalue yourself. just think first..?
<3
its overr!
naww. what a pitty. just finished watching seasons 3 and 4 of one tree hill! and now im in need of buying season 5! haha. once you get a taste you just wana finish it all? and thats what i want. haha.
naww, what a great way to end season 4, they all finish and graduate high school. and are on their way to making their future. their goals. and all of them are gna stick it out, till the end! together forever. just lyk my friends and i! :) its gna be the same hopefully, were all gna do our own things in life, but still make time for eachother. still be friends, because no matter what goes on in life, you should always have that feeling of support, care and love from your friends right?
this last ep also kinda made me realise how fast time goes, lyk for the people in one tree hill, they just had 4 yrs of high school. and coz its america it was lyk freshmore year and senior year then they graduate. thats kinda lyk us only we have 6 yrs in high school, 3 of which i have already completed. being in yr 9, looking back you really see how far you have come. how fast time has flied. i can remember it so clearly, the beginning of all this, in yr 7. the troubles i had, and now thinking of that, i dnt feel bad about what didnt happen- (me going to sac) but instead what did happen, meeting my awsomely amazing friends at mcauley and starting my high school journey there. a lot has happened since that first day of high school, well easier just to say first yr of high school. and im kinda glad..
also makes me realise how much has already happened on my high school journey and mann next yr! its gna be sad to say goodbye to a few of my dear friends moving to other schools. guess we'll jst have to make the most outa it and appreciate the time we do have together, which as always will BE AWSOME! ;D
you know you can really learn a lot from ONE TREE HILL! no joke! ;) hehe. well i did anyway. as usual. i had something to say but i got distracted by these pics of such beautiful rooms! i want one. haha. or at least to dedecorate my room, and make it MY ROOM, not shared by my mean sister --'
naww, what a great way to end season 4, they all finish and graduate high school. and are on their way to making their future. their goals. and all of them are gna stick it out, till the end! together forever. just lyk my friends and i! :) its gna be the same hopefully, were all gna do our own things in life, but still make time for eachother. still be friends, because no matter what goes on in life, you should always have that feeling of support, care and love from your friends right?
this last ep also kinda made me realise how fast time goes, lyk for the people in one tree hill, they just had 4 yrs of high school. and coz its america it was lyk freshmore year and senior year then they graduate. thats kinda lyk us only we have 6 yrs in high school, 3 of which i have already completed. being in yr 9, looking back you really see how far you have come. how fast time has flied. i can remember it so clearly, the beginning of all this, in yr 7. the troubles i had, and now thinking of that, i dnt feel bad about what didnt happen- (me going to sac) but instead what did happen, meeting my awsomely amazing friends at mcauley and starting my high school journey there. a lot has happened since that first day of high school, well easier just to say first yr of high school. and im kinda glad..
also makes me realise how much has already happened on my high school journey and mann next yr! its gna be sad to say goodbye to a few of my dear friends moving to other schools. guess we'll jst have to make the most outa it and appreciate the time we do have together, which as always will BE AWSOME! ;D
you know you can really learn a lot from ONE TREE HILL! no joke! ;) hehe. well i did anyway. as usual. i had something to say but i got distracted by these pics of such beautiful rooms! i want one. haha. or at least to dedecorate my room, and make it MY ROOM, not shared by my mean sister --'
omg! haha. those rooms were awsome. home-designing.com?
some of them looked so cool! :)
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
vianca girl here.
heyy blogspotters. vianca girl here. SPOTTED. Confused J, hanging out with the big boys.. hmmm make your mind up Confused J, arent you one of them too? hahhahahahahahaha.
LOOOLL i loverr niniishkaa. <3
till next time upper east westmead-ers.
xoxo vianca girl ;)
LOOOLL i loverr niniishkaa. <3
till next time upper east westmead-ers.
xoxo vianca girl ;)
Monday, November 16, 2009
ONE TREE HILL!
"...the important thing is, not to be bitter about life's dissapointments, learn to let Go of the past." -Whitey
"..and recognise that everyday wont be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in the darkness of dispare, remember it is only in the black of night that you can see that stars, and no star will lead you back home. So dont be afraid to to make mistakes, to stumble, fall because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for, maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you, the road is long and in the end the journey is the destination. " Whitey :D
I swear i learn so much from OTH! and im glad. because what it teaches you, really helps you understand life better..in some ways ;)
"..and recognise that everyday wont be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in the darkness of dispare, remember it is only in the black of night that you can see that stars, and no star will lead you back home. So dont be afraid to to make mistakes, to stumble, fall because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for, maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you, the road is long and in the end the journey is the destination. " Whitey :D
I swear i learn so much from OTH! and im glad. because what it teaches you, really helps you understand life better..in some ways ;)
Saturday, November 14, 2009
words of wisdom from. Fr Ron. my priest :)
lol. wait. atm, well before i was talking to a few people. and then one by one. they went to eat --' haha funny how when ones there, theyr there and then wen one goes they all go, even though they dnt even no :L funny. mann atm i feel so HAPPY!? haha. i guess i have reason to be, but also mann im cracking myself up. maybe i should eat not too. im kinda hungry.
okay. lol i no im in the middle of blogging, but i should eat. haha. i dno what im blogging this but i love to share, what can i say? :L
okay. haha. sorry for that. im all calmed down now. ;)
im gna quote something from the parish bulleton that my priest said
and so there you have it. it really would explain the meaning of this quote, of how i interprate it but im sure we all find our own way to relate our lives to this, or even see if we can make that difference? ;) haha. im not really bothered atm to explain so i hope you think a bit about it and yeaa, it helps you in some way ;) oh and im sorry for my laziness.
okay. lol i no im in the middle of blogging, but i should eat. haha. i dno what im blogging this but i love to share, what can i say? :L
okay. haha. sorry for that. im all calmed down now. ;)
im gna quote something from the parish bulleton that my priest said
"The reality is, we have the gift of today and we are not sure about any other future. Appriciate today and make the most of the opportunities, especially the God-given invitations that will come your way."
and so there you have it. it really would explain the meaning of this quote, of how i interprate it but im sure we all find our own way to relate our lives to this, or even see if we can make that difference? ;) haha. im not really bothered atm to explain so i hope you think a bit about it and yeaa, it helps you in some way ;) oh and im sorry for my laziness.
night everyone! :D
Friday, November 6, 2009
and the results are...positive..
LIFE SUCKS, yepp.
that kinda sums it all up, i had an awsome day, i really did. cannot complain about a thing, well i could. so i AM!
come home, and already my mums making frkn stupid rules, getting pissed at idno what or even why. faaaahrr out! she says now i have to give her my phone every night :O coz im on it too much? faaahhhh! i swear, one personal item i have, my phone and she wants to take that away too! why? can i please ask why?
ahh, ruin everything, all the time!
and so i guess it was fun while it lasted..
lol, i found out today, that i can talk for ages, without even knowing how long? lol ness, about OTH, the best show EVERR! haaha. it really, truely is. teaches you so much, and as vanessa found out today, i can go on and on about that story. so much to tell, so much going on..
omgomgomg. and so i have to go study, hopefully. im also really tired, and need to take a proper shower, but all in all, today. was. awsome. aquatic centre with my friends :) hehe, it really was so much fun :)
yaay, i like moments lyk that, make you feel so good, lyk were on holidays.. oh how i wish..
so long blogspot. i shall see u some other day. hopefully to share something more bright? happy? better than the usual..?
that kinda sums it all up, i had an awsome day, i really did. cannot complain about a thing, well i could. so i AM!
come home, and already my mums making frkn stupid rules, getting pissed at idno what or even why. faaaahrr out! she says now i have to give her my phone every night :O coz im on it too much? faaahhhh! i swear, one personal item i have, my phone and she wants to take that away too! why? can i please ask why?
ahh, ruin everything, all the time!
and so i guess it was fun while it lasted..
lol, i found out today, that i can talk for ages, without even knowing how long? lol ness, about OTH, the best show EVERR! haaha. it really, truely is. teaches you so much, and as vanessa found out today, i can go on and on about that story. so much to tell, so much going on..
omgomgomg. and so i have to go study, hopefully. im also really tired, and need to take a proper shower, but all in all, today. was. awsome. aquatic centre with my friends :) hehe, it really was so much fun :)
yaay, i like moments lyk that, make you feel so good, lyk were on holidays.. oh how i wish..
so long blogspot. i shall see u some other day. hopefully to share something more bright? happy? better than the usual..?
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
it seems that disapointment surrounds me? :(
and so, once again i get my hopes up. and one thing goes wrong, and BAMM! im crushed, im disapointed and confused, always wondering why am i always the one whos bubble is poped? :( why me? again, really. what do i do to deserve this kind of treatment..? :(
it hurts, being disapointed..
i disapoint myself sometimes, not happy about that..
the people i love dearly at times disapoint me.. i guess its not inteninally right?
and then my parents, seem to disapoint me too.
lyk my plans for friday the 13th.. all gone now, i got not only my hopes up but also my friends. and im so sorry for that! ahh, i was so excited. thats why before i learnt that i wouldnt let myself get excited so easily, coz it only hurts more knowing and receiving that disapointment..
oh well, what can i say. it all happens for a reason, a reason that really confuses me? :(
going to bed disapointed at myself and my mum..
it hurts, being disapointed..
i disapoint myself sometimes, not happy about that..
the people i love dearly at times disapoint me.. i guess its not inteninally right?
and then my parents, seem to disapoint me too.
lyk my plans for friday the 13th.. all gone now, i got not only my hopes up but also my friends. and im so sorry for that! ahh, i was so excited. thats why before i learnt that i wouldnt let myself get excited so easily, coz it only hurts more knowing and receiving that disapointment..
oh well, what can i say. it all happens for a reason, a reason that really confuses me? :(
going to bed disapointed at myself and my mum..
whats wrong?!
omg, theres something wrong with me.
haha, well its not a good thing, i was writing notes right, for science. hoping to also get started on math and commerce but no, i fall asleep on my science textbook and then i think lyk an hour later wake up --' then my mums lyk if ur tired go to sleep, so after jst sitting up in front of my books, wanting to continue writting notes, i decide this isnt working so then decide to go sleep on my bed, im on my bed. try to sleep, even listen to music, all i do is yawn and rub my eyes and then close them, CANT SLEEP on my frnk bed and im too tired to study. EVEN THOU I WNA! i wna get as much done asap so all i have to do is revise them but --'
omg, there, yawning already yet i can sleep on the floor, lyking on my books but not on my pillow on my bed? wthh! something wrong with that, ive written less than a pg of science, attempting to do math now, a bit easier.
even my mum asked, why am i so tired? idno, really i dnt. im jst always rubbing my eyes, making them worse and yawning, feeling tired all day! faa, whered my energy go? :( i need to sleep, but i cant. my head is clouded with all the stuff i need to get done, studying! ahh, my goosh. *YAWN* so tired. please someone help me get to sleep. i think its the weather :/
ttly bloggers. haha. i need to get some work done and then SLEEP!
haha, well its not a good thing, i was writing notes right, for science. hoping to also get started on math and commerce but no, i fall asleep on my science textbook and then i think lyk an hour later wake up --' then my mums lyk if ur tired go to sleep, so after jst sitting up in front of my books, wanting to continue writting notes, i decide this isnt working so then decide to go sleep on my bed, im on my bed. try to sleep, even listen to music, all i do is yawn and rub my eyes and then close them, CANT SLEEP on my frnk bed and im too tired to study. EVEN THOU I WNA! i wna get as much done asap so all i have to do is revise them but --'
omg, there, yawning already yet i can sleep on the floor, lyking on my books but not on my pillow on my bed? wthh! something wrong with that, ive written less than a pg of science, attempting to do math now, a bit easier.
even my mum asked, why am i so tired? idno, really i dnt. im jst always rubbing my eyes, making them worse and yawning, feeling tired all day! faa, whered my energy go? :( i need to sleep, but i cant. my head is clouded with all the stuff i need to get done, studying! ahh, my goosh. *YAWN* so tired. please someone help me get to sleep. i think its the weather :/
ttly bloggers. haha. i need to get some work done and then SLEEP!
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