boreddd. and sick.

im sick.and today i diddnt go to school. although now i wish i had. i no im gna miss out on stuff and a sushi party. i've been on the computer almost the whole time, i am also doing my re assignment. i was gna do my science hw too but i ddnt bring my book home. im so bored but i think im getting better. as in my nose isn't that runny anymore :) the weather is still dull and gloomy and i am listening to the radio, 104.1.kyle and jackio show and omg the song playing now is just lyk the weather, dull and gloomy. common. i need something to brighten up my day. :(

omg i had the maddest dream ever last night and i wanted to share! ok last night i was msging two friends, Vanessa and my primary friend Paulina. anyway i dreamed of mercy day, i no. thoes of you who go to my school and no what im talking about it is lyk only the bestest school day ever, you get to dress up in a theme and there are games and activities to do. no work all play. well i dreamed that my primary friends, who now go to sac and all my other friends were there. i was surprised because they were all around eachother and lyk having fun at mercy day. everyone all my friends got along and were minggling? if thats how u spell it but it was great. al my friends got along and lyk it was also kinda wierd, to be dreaming about mercy day, especially because it is only for mercy schools and i dnt no how they got there? maybe they went to mcauley. but if my primary friends, or at least one of them went to mcauley with me, who would i be hanging around? wouldi still be in the same group? would i be the same person i am now or would that one change in my school life have changed everything? its so weird how the smallest things can make the diggest difference. itsnt it? im gna go watch ellen degenerous show now, then i'll be back!
omg do u love ellen? i love ellen! hehe who doesn't love her. she is lyk a mix between rove and opra, she is so generous and funny too. on today's show she had halle berry and flo rider!
ohh! i jst remembered.....HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!! lmao i bet if my friends remembered and i went to school today i would be fooled even more than usual :) ima get back to work now. yepp lol work. ;)

why?

today started of so well. i was excited, (in a way) for my neighbour's baby's first birthday, we didn't really know many people but through the day we met new people and learnt new names, quite a few actually, i got confused sometimes. ok and one thing i like to do, and that is to start my day well and end it the same way, well! today my sister was on the computer, she went off so i came on, then i needed to use the usb port thingo and lyk her usb was still in it. so i pulled it out but ddnt do the safe eject thing first. wen she came back on she was lyk so angry and blaming me that she saved something and now it wasn't on her usb anymore. i could care less, it wasn't my problem but apparently if anything goes wrong in my sisiter's life it is MY faul. i dnt know how or why but it IS! i dnt get it. i ddnt do anything so i went on and tried to help her find her shit on the computer and then she was lyk ye! that's the one now print it. i always try and help but no, she takes everything and everyone for grauanted and lyk didn't even say thatnkyou for finding it. like i sed i couldn't care less about her stupid assignment speech, its not my problem why should i bother, its not like she EVER returns the favour. then i printed it and lyk exed out of the page. it was printed and i was about to start what ever i was about to do until she was lyk no put it back and save it on my file! now. and then she calls ME selfish. what! does she know the defenition? i guess not! ah i hate her i hate her i hate her!period!
ok then i ddnt want to do what she said and was taking my time, i forgot what happened next but i hit her paper with her assignment, and ooopppss it kinda bent and wasn't staright anymore. that obviuosly upset her and then she pulled my hair, it was extra painful coz my hair was straightened from the party. i dnt even know what heppened but i had to print another one and a nother one. i was getting pissed at what she was saying to me and felt lyk......ah!:@.
she pissed me off so much and then i went downstairs coz we were going to start that earth hour and guess wot? something else happens. it pisses me off so much that if anything goes wrong I am ALWAYS the one to be blamed. my mum was lyk stop doing that to ur sister! i dnt do anything but put my finger up, after i did that she asked me to do it again, she is obviously blind as well as an idiot. then i got in more trouble. i was even more pissed, until my dad says something. guess wot. he was picking on me. i get even more pissed and angry when he says stuff about my friends, idky but he always has to pick on me! always. and on every little thing too. my friends are so good and lyk dnt do anything to him or anyone else but he had to say something. i decided not to talk to anyone and more was coming. i started crying! WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE MY FALUT! its not fair at all! if i dnt do something, i get in trouble, if i do do something i still get in trouble and if i do well in something, well its just not good enough! the thing especially is when my family say something about my friends, only because they don't know them as well as i do. i hate how my sister thinks im a wonna be just coz of my friends. im not! and i dnt care what she things at all, it just bothers me so much that she says that stuff. i believe she is the worst sister ever! and im not lying or joking either, no one knows who she truley is except me, not even my parents do. they dnt care if anything happens to me, as long as she isn't hurt. apparently to them i am the bulley, the don't really know what's going on.at all.! i am so frustraighted, the way my sister can act all good when my friends are here and then only i know what does on after that. she thinks i am i wonna be, she is one of the people that i guess has a problem with me being with my friends, its none of her business!NO ITS NOT she just says i am the odd one out and, well that sometimes gets to me, everytime i do something, she will always, always say something about my friends and how i dnt belong with them.:'(
its not fair the way i am treated sometimes, in my own home. that's why i like it more when my friends are there, they don't really care, we just have fun. i hope i ddnt upset anyone through the end of this blog.:( and on top of that my sister thinks my friends think she 's better than me and like me less. its getting to her head.:#


now something else that happened today was at the party, there was this girl and her brother, she was in yr1 and her brother in yr2. they are both so cute. they both kept on saying wen i grow up i wonna kill my brother/sister. i was lyk so shocked to her such little kids saying this! but then he was lyk i hate girls and my sister. clearly not as he was nice to his little sister. but then, later on when we were starting to play hide-and-seek. i was talking to the little girl and lyk she kept on saying, i wonna die or i want someone to kill me. she was lyk to me "do u want to kill me?" i of course said NO and was lyk why do u want to die so bad? she was only lyk 5. so young and she wanted to die, she said she would pierce her heart or get someone to kill her. i was still so shocked and wondering why? what does this mean for a 5 yr old to be saying this? finally she answered me and said, i want to die so i can see God. then i thought WOW. that is kinda sweet in a way and cute, i told her, can't you wait for a few more years, you are so young but she didn't answer me.
after hearing her say that, and this is from a five yr old i started thinking. i am a person who is not afraid to die, i could die tomorrow and i wouldn't really be saying i wish i got to this or that because, yes i wouold think that but i love my friends, sometimes my family, definately my extened family and i have already done and experienced so much. im not worried at all but i dnt want the last thing i do in my life to be bad. that's why i love to treat everyone so well and do good things. well one reason, i think? but lyk that's not really something bad to think about, maybe for a five yr old but still?

another one?

yeye i know. another useless blog but i've been waiting so long for the msn thingo to fully download so i am using meebo in the meantime and lyk its taking ages to sign in. i am also kinda tired and lyk annoyed but how slow everything is on the net today. lol its funny coz i get excited on firday nights now, ever since a few weeks ago. something exciting always happens and i never even knew my friends were up that late on msn! kinda cool. wish i could do that. lol btw i started straightening my hair today. well tonight, i hate it coz half way threw im lyk not bothered anymore so lyk hlaf my hair is done and the other half is just there! kinda funny. still waiting. i am going to my neighbours birthday tomorrow. she is truning one! how cute. =D oh i wont msn to download already. this might be the reason for the lag? but uh its taking ages. oh well, better than having no net at all. isn't it? still waiting. lol that is a good song by jessica mauboy. been waiting!........
nothing yet and on top of that, i dnt have any new blogs to read while im waiting. just thinking of some stories i can tell ness. i really dnt know what to talk about. thinking?.........
i dnt think i should talk about primary any more, idk why but ye, but then again if i dnt talk about that then what will i talk about?
still going. i am also commenting on facebook. i really have no life. :(
ok i think im gna call it a night? i give up. taking too long. maybe and hopefully tomorrow will be better. ba.ba.ba?
hehe.
night.<3

improtant?

okay today when i came back from legion- a place i go every friday, we say the rosary and talk about Mother Mary and God and today we talked about who much God loves us.

Do you know how much you love God, but more improtantly how much God loves us?
this is a really serious question as not many people reaslise how much God has sacrificed for us, "For God so loved the World He sent His only Son to save us."
do we really deserve the love God has for humans, for we have done so much to make Jesus die again and again on the corss, because of our sins but most importantly for all thoes people who don't go to mass on Sunday. that is the most important thing we can do for God, go to mass at least once a week, God made seven days, and only one of them He wants us to leave for Christ, the Sabath. we shouldn't do anything on sundays other than spend time with our families and go to mass. everytime we go to mass, Mother Mary take us with Her to Calvary where Jesus died. you may be thinking, why am i telling you this or even bothering to blog about ttis but it is so important to me and to others too. The Legion has taught me so much about my faith and shown me how ungreatful we really are....

i wonder why?

have you ever wondered why bad things happen to good people?
i do. i just don't get it, some people live such good and honest lives and others don't but why do the good and honest people have to suffer? i believe that everything happens for a reason and most of the time it does but why do thoes little things happen? lyk what happens sometimes isn't deserved and lyk why do bad things happen to good people. i've seen it happen so many times but i guess sometimes its for the best? im not quite sure, its something i really wonder about and want to find out, there has to be a good reason for everything that happens, right?
im so confused about stuff like that. but don't you wonder why that happens?

omg....nothing. lol

OMG!!! its been so long..... well not really though it has been for me. i jst got my net fixed and its been such a long couple of weeks, no net and so many assignments! ahh! oh well all's good now. well kinda, now my net is kinda slow but i love techfox-who was the guy who fied our computer after so many people attempted!

Now lets get blogging. ness i owe you 3 stories but i dnt know what to do them on yet. i had so many ideas of what to blog about but....no net:( dw though, im sure it'll come to me.....one day? hehe. im just so happy to have the internet and lyk my computer is working well, slow but well(Y).

i really do need some ideas of what to blog about and mann im kinda scared coz the weather isn't so pleasent and lyk thunder and lighting. i no we need the rain and today was a hot as day but its not really raining. i have to go soon coz lyk HOUSE is on in half an hour.

something that just came to me, well something im thinking about is the library! lol dnt you just love the library? i do. coz my friends are just that awsome! yes you. well if u are my friend and reading this. wow can you tell how happy i am. and ness wen u read this, i hope u enjoyed watching mirrors, but i dnt no how u can watch it by yourself and on a day like this? nice=D.
hehe. to tell ya the truth i dnt really like scary movies, im more of the comedy and thriller movie! omg i can't wait. these holidays im going to QLD, gold coast for the first time and i am so excited, but i really do wish that angel and vianca could come, how fun and we are driving too. on the way back i am stoping at buiron bay? sorry i can't really spell, but i hope to see vaness there!=D. now im really scared. im all alone, there's no one there beside me.....but cha gotta have friends!=D.
lmao. another promise i made to you ness, someday i will sing for you. okay. but i dnt no when and im not all that confidient tooo. also that thing bot running down a street screeming, singing a song? lol we r gonna have so much fun? if it happens.
ihave i ever told you how awsome and great my friends are? well i am. they are lyk the bestest people ever! lyk really. no joke.if you are one of my friends u r probably smiling when you read this, yes yes i no im sidekick?lmao. but ye. thanks guys so so so so..........times a million times a gazillion for everything. i really dnt no what i would have done without you guys. the moments round u guys are lyk so so so much fun. and i can't wait to cross off thoes things off my list and do em wid ya all. i actually have so much to say after all.but maybe some other time, tomorrow maybe? hehe. i dnt wonna be too long and i think i might do a blog on.......the first time i.....
so ye people will get to know me a tad? but yes. oooh lol i just remembered tomorrow i have to bring in a baby pic of me.=D can't wait to see everyone's. how cute.
ok laters for now. night. =Dan keep smiling

....?

well.to tell you the truth its kinda hard to write a blog when you don't really know what to say. i am currently on msn to bean.(ness) and well we were talking about.....uh i forget. umm i think it was about you first realy boyfriend and stuff like that. well no. i no what your thinking, im not going to blog about that, its hard.maybe someone with something to say might but its lyk something special when it does happen.- corny. =D

now im really tired and want a hug. i really don't know what to say so i'll leave it at that for now. i'll contine on when im not half asleep. i wonna go overseas.
ok good night. =D
xoxo
zzzz.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........................z!

to bean:

YOU GLOW.
I GLOW.
=D





it'll make everything alright again when you read this.same goes for me.ok.
love you.hehe

ILOVEYOU

vianca and nessa! this post is just for you. lol

and because im just that corny i'll say wot i already told you:

mannn....im truley blessed to have friends like you!=D

thank you so so so much for making me smile again tonight after going though whatever i talked about. u really know how to cheer someone up!

now im smiling!thanks to the both of you. hehe

=D

this is me now!-->

:O

ye i no. that people change.
surroundings change.
but promises DON'T!
i dnt no why i even bother.it makes me sad to say that.
mann i've changed too. u dnt see me doing the things u do?

kinda like your first boy friend, you first best friend is pretty special. thanks guys for opening my eyes about something important.

emotions!

have u ever noticed that if someone else cries u feel lyk crying?
or if someone is over the moon u feel over the moon too. lmao.great examples aye?
over the moon. lol. aren't i so funny? =P
or if someone is extremly happy you feel that too? well right now i feel really happy.although i really don't know why? maybe its coz of u ness! loll i can tell ur lyk excited adn so so happy!
=D

how many nicknames?

ninny
nino
ninobrown
dj ninobrown
nishnoshka
ninnyka
niknoshka
dusha
dush
dushie
nin
noosh
ninooshna
ninoshika
petlu
noshka (lol most common)
ninny poo
niny shit --'

my list of places to go and things to do.09'

MAXABRENA
ICE SKATING
EASTER SHOW
BEACH/CITY-(with friends)
SUSHI BAY
CAPPS
COLD ROCK
LAZER FUNNER
PANCAKES ON THE ROCKS
PENRITH PLAZA
FRIED ICE CREAM
LINT CAFE



i no.i no. its shocking that i haven't been to these places or done these things but i have already started crossing some off! wooo.
italics means i have done it and crossed if off!

sac?....mcauley--that was then and this is now

Now this is something i've been thinking about for a while now. well sicne the beginning of year seven to be exact. sadly going into high school and starting year seven i was the only person from my primary as most people went to our fedus school.SAC. at first i wanted to go there so bad but now i'm so glad i ddnt in a way>I'm not quite sure why.I'm still thinking about that but I'm glad to go to mcauley .although it did take me a long time to realise this.i only just admitted to it lyk half way through last year?or something like that.

the thing i was dreading most was coming up! end of year.06. i hate the fact i would be going to high school alone. sac orientation day, a bit more than half of my grade was going there, i wondered what they would do there? if my bffls Paulina and Natasha and other friends would meet new people and they did.they told me all about it and the next horrible thing to happen was.....

My orientation day. i was going to have to catch a train! it was possible that i wouldn't have to do this alone but my friends weren't able go to, i even tried to help by giving them the application form-see how desperate i was to have a friend to start high school with. for weeks i would dread it.going to mcauley,an all girls school.if only i knew it wouldn't be that hard. but the worst thing was that i let that thought get to me, all my closest friends would together and i would be left out, not only from school things but social too. i make it a point that we would all promise to keep in touch and every holidays meet up at someone's house, it was something i could hope about, well atleast now that everything would change. for a second i actually thought it would work but things like bebo just made it worst, it was hopeless. i couldn't be the only one trying to keep in touch. it doesn't work that way, everyone has to try but now, even though we live minutes away from eachother we mostly communicate through msn. the only thing bebo did was make me more upset so i deleted it lyk half way through last yr and wen i met them a few weeks ago i was so happy to see them.like old times, the question was asked, something about bebo and i was like.....uh i deleted it lyk sometime last year. it kinda hurt that they would ask that, in a way that they didn't even notice but would ask me about it a lot, not that bebo even helped, so much for keeping in touch. but when i do see them i wouldn't really hesitate to say hi as they meant so much and the memories i have! and i don't hold grudges over any of my friends, no matter what they do. i just forgive and forget!

sorry bot that.kinda got off track there but its something i gotta say. something sentimental-lol ness. back to orientation day. i couldn't help myself. i could only think of the worst possible things happening. ok i walked into thoese school gates for the first time. dec.06. wearing my school sports uniform, the only thing keeping me hopeful was knowing the next school day would be back to normal. i would be with my friends and wouldn't have to worry about high school...yet! my mum knew how cut i was that i was alone and she tried to help me meet new people, lol she did but the person's grandmother she was talking to was daniella macediongle-i think thats how u spell it. but wen she left i was with my sister,looking around at my new surroundings, soon to be my school for the next six years. i was so worried and to make things worst.the bell went.....my sister and her friends had to go and i was alone.sadly something i would have had to get used to. but im not the kind of person who can just get used to being alone, to tell you the truth i hate being alone! the only thing i could do was walk to the tables where they were giving name tags and telling you what colour group you were in.for a while i just looked around. it was lyk kindergarten-even though started kindy in the middle of the year in australia but it felt the same, actually even worse because in kindy like no one knows many people and mostly everyone is friendly but in high school not everyone is friendly and if they have their own friends most likely they will choose to stay with them, so i will make new friends but not yet. i could see large groups of girls just standing around or sitting and laughing and talking together. something i would miss doing with my friends as they would be in sac. as i walked around i saw two girls sitting together, not really talking so i went up to them and jst asked can i please sit here? the girls were Justine and Pauline. Justine said yes but when i did sit down she left.i felt kinda bad and confused too. lyk she didn't have to let me sit there but to leave wen i did sit! thanks justine.naa jks you've changed.lol. i think this was at recess but i can't remember all that clearly. i couldn't take being alone so i walked around and then decided to go to the toilet until....

the best part is coming up! yaya! lol.......

as i walked past this big group of girls sitting at a table, two of them started following me.hehe sounds funny doesn't it? well now we do laugh at it...... i think they liked called me over but i dnt think i heard them so i continued on to the toilet.the were lyk wondering where is this girl going?haha. then they followed me and stopped me.they were kind and friendly enough to ask me if i would like to sit with them.mann i felt to hapy but awkward at the same time.they all inrtoduced themself and we started talking.i ddnt know but i think i talked a bit too much.lol they told me they were kicking each other under the table. ooopsss sorry guys. but im glad u were so honest bot the things u did and thought of me in yr 7!

ok now for the happy part in this story of mine. well i also realised that in some way or another, maybe in the tinyest details some of my new friends reminded me of my primary school friends? and i also noticed that i think it was vianca and justine or some other people were in the same yellow group as me! then it all started to go up hill from there! which made me feel good. the next school day, back at primary, i told my friends about the wonderfully friendly people who came uo to me, it felt good to say that i had made some friends even though i dreaded that day.=D and also they gave me their msn addresses. well majelle and vianca, although i don't really think majelle gave me the right one? anyways i was sad as graduation day came and well, we were now in high school. the only thing i could hope about was that vianca, majelle and their friends remembered me! and the weirdest thing happened! in the holidays when i went to get my school uniform, guess who i saw? majelle and vianca were there too. leaving, they had also got their unoforms! i thought wow! what a coincedence!

Now the first day of school was okay, they did remember me and i found out that vianca and justine, arianne and a few other people were in my year seven homeroom! so most of us did japanese and had all our classes together. something i missed was doing my group assignments with my primary friends and even that in primary my best friend's work was always somewhere near mine. eg. behind,next to,opposite, under my work. and our names. it was kinda freaky but we got used to it. now year seven- the sadest part was whenever we went on an excersion- i missed sitting mext to my best friend on the bus. i either sat by myself of a teacher would see a vacent seat next to me and sit there --'. so it was pretty bad.

i can't believe now how close i am to all my friends, since year seven-well not that much but since the end of last year. and now i really couldn't be happier with the great and funny friends i have now. i've learnt so much from the beginnig of year seven till now still, that everything happens for a reason. and yes i value and treasure my friendships. they mean a lot to me. like i sed in recent posts that people change and im happy with the person i've become and the things my friends have now taught me, and helped me thoughout! i'm so glad to have gotten to know all of you better and thanks for doing what you did on orientation day. now i really don't know what i would have done without u guys to be there, well i would have friends lyk with the people in year seven homeroom but it would be different. it's also such a small world as my best friend in year two- precious was lyk leslie's best friend in kindy and one before she came to my school. and also that vianca and inah are family friends in some way? but that's kinda freaky isn't it how everything worked out? but im so gald.

THANKS to some special people i went home, having something to start my school year with.friends in some way? some people were genuinely friendly since day one and i thank you so much.to all of you.you may not have realised what you did for me on orientation day but it meant a lot to me that you did approach me.=D and now i couldn't happier with the person i've become, in more ways than one.I would just like to say a HUGE THANK YOU! TO ALL MY MCAULEY FRIENDS, ness, vianca, gabby, angel, abby, leslie, pris, sarah and yohana for making my first few years of high school so much fun, also for teaching me so much and for always being so honest. I LOVE YOU ALL! xoxo

tried!sleepy.zzzz

well for me it's pretty late and i dnt really know what to talk about. I am currently on msn.talking to ness and vianca! uh nothing to do or say.im just bored. im actually surprised at how many people are on msn for so long.what do they do when they are bored? and so tired of watching the screen of the computer.i'm supposed to be able to watch tv on my computer but i don't have an antena for it yet. well it's not like there's anything good on anyways!
The big question on everyone's mind! Why is Ninny so corny?
well to tell you the truth im not quite sure.im just told that a lot. corny and sweet? lol.
You know what are some awsome shows? ROVE! How i Mwt your mother! ya and HOUSE- so interesting sometimes i actually think it is real and that house really can't let anyone die.obviously if that was true it would be amazing to have doctors like that but those shows are so interesting.so is grey's anatomy?
oh now my head hurts! feels so heavy.
aaahhhh. ok im gonna go now.so tired.
until next time.lol
=D

First and foremost?

yay! today I made my blogger acount.although its not my first time!
I'm so glad to get help from my awsome friend with my english essay!thank you so much.I really do owe you one Vianca!