..lying in bed. Staring out the window and i see little stars appear of no where, then staying there. Appearing one at a time. Looking so pretty, they are so little but i can still see it from my bedroom window. Looking out and thinking. Wondering. Hoping. Its quiet. Everyone is in their room or sleeping. Already and its so early. But im happy cause i can wake up from my nap and need not worry about ending the night like the past couple..crying --' im tired of doing this, i want to go back to normal not feeling that way cause it just wasnt helping me in any way what so ever.
Even though i am restricted this long weekend. Im gna do what i want and need in order to enjy myself. Im not gna let them take that away.
Im gna try turning over a new leaf, i already know they see ive changed and maybe not in the good way as i argue a lot, im not doing it on purpose. Not really. I just want him to understand. I want him to get to know me. And maybe even care for me. If that is possible for him.
Anyways thats whats on my mind..4 days. And hopefully all will be good. Please. Dnt let anything bad happen. I dnt want my hope to be shattered..just waiting for my mum and i'll be alright. :) i hope.