home is where the heart is

Hey :)

Again this is something that's been on my mind for a while..something i've wanted to blog about but havent.
Let me tell you a little something about me.
So I came from Dubai to Australia in the year 2000 when i was only 4. So from the time i was born till i moved to Australia there isnt all that much i remember..and i wish that wasnt the case.
The most vivid memories i have before i came to Australia are only my birthday parties and celebrations that we have on video..now converted into dvds but yea. i watch them over and over and i love them, especially my 3rd birthday. Other than my birthday this and last year i must say my 3rd birthday has to be my favourite.
There's so much i wish i knew about the 4 years before i moved, the 4 years where my life would have been completely different..
I just wish i knew..its something i think about sometimes esp since there are specific memories that i have and i love..to do with a water park. i guess somewhat similar to wet'n'wild and aquatic cntr? maybe thats why i love aquatic center so much? hahha but i have many fond memories there.Thinking about it now..in 4 years so much could have happened. and so much did happen. in dubai my sister broke her arm 3times in the same place..on three different occasions. i remember being in a recital..and i wasnt even old enough to go to school yet but i did..cause i had no one to look after me at home and there arent day care or pre school in dubai and my aunty was a music teacher..i remember being in one of her classes and everyone would be distracted by me :L hahaha and i was seriously only 2andahalf when i started kindy..i did 3 years of kindy so my aunty told me. 2 in dubai and then actually starting kindy in australia. but like my aunty told me how the uniform was massive on me :L hahhaa sounds funny. lol my sister dad and i were so thin and skinny before coming to australia... before living in dubai we lived in Sarjah and well 4 years..so far ive had 4 years of high school from year 7-10 and look how much happened..heaps of life changing events :) im glad for it and thats why i wish i knew more about the 4 years i had before moving to Aus.


Idno..maybe im wondering too much about it? well not really. im just curious seeing as we're going to visit dubai maybe somewhere in the next 5-10 years. ohh well :) the life i remember in dubai, i loved. cause i was with my family and no one fought and we were a happy family..well happier than now anyway.


anyways ttly :) have a lovely week. im off to dinner. im hungry :L
<3 

fortune or cookie? ;)

some things just really frustrate me --'

..i hate double standards :/

crossroads

happiness is not something you should count by the bucket load but something you should feel and see with your eyes shut.


so i was confused. for a while. and i think now, im over it. i've made up my mind..funny thing is atm chasing pavements is on well just finished. and how its my solider :)
anyway. what i want to say is that i may not know exactly what i want to do, but im pretty sure its not engineering. it confused me for so long, making me worry. now that i think about it, it doesnt matter what i do. as long as i love it and as long as im happy. if it takes long for me too find that so be it, but im not going to waste precious time worrying about it anymore..for now at least.

the past couple of days i've been pretty inspired. by blogs ive read and people ive seen, stories ive heard, words that just spoke out to me..
ive been worrying about something so minute, things less important. ive realised and opened my eyes to the bigger things, the more important things. the realisation of how lucky i am, sometimes i just forget that when really i should be reminded everyday with what i have. i should just know how lucky ive got it. the sun is shining into the room atm and i feel so calm, having  had today to really sort myself out and then having a dnm with majelle that really got a lot out..i feel content with myself. i feel happy. i am happy. im alone and ive had time to think. i know that, the only thing i have to worry about is making sure i dont get too sick and concentrate on my sc which i plan to do well in! i really want to do it for myself.

i spend too much time feeling sorry for myself, or being selfish or not appreciating what i really should be thankful for. i need to just live life like there's no tomorrow, even if i may have regrets i learn from that. i want to be more independent and so far im not going to well, well atm im independent with relying less on my parents..as for my empolyment..i have none..but i'll just keep doing what im doing if it means to reapply every few month eventually i'll get a job..hopefully :L

anyway i better get going. ive been meaning to blog for a while but whenever i wanted to, i couldnt or i didnt want to but im glad i did. :)

have a lovely evening :) smile. be happy. laugh. cry. love. learn. take the opportunities you get. be proud of yourself.

alright thats all from me for now :)
i hope to blog more often now lol <3

..and she shed a tear while the world's not looking :(