this little girl i know is one of the most happiest people i know. 

she literally is a bundle of joy. so energetic. always running around. always smiling, her cheeky little smile. always laughing. naww her name is angelina. we call her angie and i think she is 4? not sure but she's so idno. she's young enough not to have a care in the world but old enough to enjoy herself and do what makes her happy :) love that little girl. she's always so happy, lol people even say she reminds them of me when i was her age :L love to see that little girl smiling and laughing. spreading the joy ;)

footprints :)

(this just came to me while walking on a beach in foster so yeaa. i wrote it on my phone so i could remember and post it up here. hope it still makes sense :) )

Its easier to make your own footprints in the sand than to walk in someone else's. it may not hurt as much to walk in someone's footprints but than what mark are you leaving by following others when it is just as simple to leave your own?

Different beach. Different people. Same footprints. because no matter where we are, we are all the same. we may look different but even in our footprints we leave in the sand we look alike ;D
lmao if you really think about it, they really just look like deepish holes in the sand :L HAHAH

(8) should i give up, or should i just keep chasing pavement..

this song has been in my head all day i think?
well when i was having a shower and thinking..this song suits my mood atm.. im not too happy or upbeat or anything and even better this weather is dragging me down...ima make this post quick cause i have stuff to do but well
*sigh
i have so much on my mind..and i wish i didnt. the pressure. the decisions. the responsibility. the stupidity. idno whats going on with me atm, but last night gave me a reality call D: big time.. idno if it is just the weather. or the lecture i got last night. or the crying. or just one of those 'phases' i go through these days. these phases i hate. i really do D:
...skip skip skip.
i was thinking a lot. and well. this week is going to be almost the opposite of last week.. instead of having people over or going out everyday i will be at home..by myself.. and im not really the kinda person who likes being alone a lot of the time but i maybe this is what i need right now. i dont have fb either for the moment so i'll be more focused. idno if im going to loose my mind outa boredom or all this time to myself will make me even sadder but i need time to think. i need time to be independent for my benefit and sort out the stuff in my head. :s mann idno seriously hearing myself say this is bad enough..putting the words into actions will be hard but i will learn. and i can do this. for me.
..too much is happening now and idno if i'll cope. not too sure what exactly is going on, praying it will be alright. :/ maybe it will..

i guess i'll be chasing pavements this week than..but i wont give up!

..one thing i do look forward to is soccer tomorrow. i love how i love soccer and its like a distraction too and its fun and i love my team and everything really gets me to relax.

..but its true. i miss the sun. wish it comes back soon..