what happened?

well right now a lot is going on. at least that what it feels lyk. idno bu i feel so sad, lyk something is missing...again :(
ahh crapp, something jst happened to my neck and it kills. ouch! :/
ahh so much work to do, assignments and stuff. ahh, its all piling up now?
at the moment things are a bit hard, idno bu lyk i miss the way everything was before. now its so different and i no sometimes change is good but i wasnt ready for this at all. and its just makes me sad knowing... :(
its not fair and on top of that people in my class sed that next yr and in yr11 our grade will have had so many girls leave and im gna miss all my friends so much, im gna cry! :'(
its hard knowing someone for a while, watching them change, getting closer to them and better friends and then, bam, they're gone. or it seems lyk that coz they've maybe changed co much that you hardly known them? :(
ahh just that thought makes me so upset inside, since ive kinda gone through that once and boy did it kill me! :/ i jst dont know how i would handle it if it had to happen again, especially since lyk my friends now, ive gotten to know them so well it feels lyk we've known eachother forever! and thats pretty amazing, i jst wouldnt like to lose any of them thats all. but i know that they are friends forever, bu maybe when they change they forget? and idno. still kills me, i jst dont want that happening. i would miss them so much, mann they are the reason i cant keep a straight face at school! :D they just make me so happy! they really do and im so greatful and thankful to have them as my friends, no matter what people say about me being different or whatever i jst dont care! :(
it still kills me, the thought of ever losing any of them but then again, ive made promises with some of them that i know they will keep! :) i seriously would be lost without them, they remind me who i am. if i ever forgot that i would always know where i can find myself and thats with my friends <3