omg sometimes i really wonder if i belong with my family, i really do. everyone's always putting me down or saying something to upset me and its lyk only once in lyk a life time that we actually have a nice family moment! ahh my frkn dad always shouting at me for no reason, omg seriously i want him to leave me alone!
jst then i started crying coz of what he was saying --'
he doesnt even realise sometimes, it really hurts. and atm im so upset. i need a shoulder to cry on :'( i miss my aunty :( shes in india and has been for a few years now but before she lived here and was a sub teacher. faa i miss her so freaking much, she was lyk my mother :'( and i just want her back! i spoke to her today, she called and as soon as i heard her voice i was instantly happy. and then as we got talking i was gna start crying coz shes not here, with me, oh gosh, the tears are rolling down now :'( its not fair, before i was so dependednt on her and then her family needed her so she had to leave and now its lyk, what can i do. i had to learn to do things more independently and i miss her! :'( ahh i hate my life, at home at least. i just love being around my friends, they make it all better :)
naww, i dnt want to lose anyone. but i feel as though i am, and that feeling makes me cry so much :'( lyk really, i dnt wna lose that person so i am trying my best not to and to get them back! :( why does everything have to be so hard now? why now? i miss the way it all used to be, so simple and happy. but one thing can change all that, one thing can make the biggest difference :( oh whyy did it have to be this way? i want to turn back time. i want a hug :(
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