i miss you.

so dearly. havent seen you in ages. and on saturday night when i couldnt stop crying, i just wished you were there with me. as simple as that. jst ur presence in my house. but your where you are needed most, with your family.
jst spoke to you on the phone, and i am upset because i was rude to you, its been so long since i spoke to you, but im in a bad mood and now im annoyed because i didnt talk to you properly. :'( im sorry, i didnt mean to be disinterested. you said you missed me and loved me too..i miss you so much, and everytime i think about you not being here, with me, i get teary. i miss you that much. and ofcourse i love you too. u said u wished so so so much if i could go to india, and be with you for the holidays. oh how i long to be with you, in times when all hope is lost in this family. i just want you. no one else. but i can never use the right words to express how much i love you. you are my family, and i need you to be okay, even if that is across the globe, in another continent from me. i just miss you, and understand that your family needed you and you made that sacrifice and left, for them to go back. risking ur opportunity to get a steady job and live here, then bring ur family. but he was sick and needed you, and now your there. and have been for so many years. or so it seems like that, to me.

please, i wish i could stay with yo for a while, jst dnt have the money. but i cant wait to see you if we come down in december, everytime we talk i feel like crying. i just miss you.
look after yourself, and your family.
im praying for you, that yoy will be well.
i love you.. <3

:'(