controlled

most of my life atm can be summed up by one word.

controlled!

i wish it wasnt. but in way to many ways, it is.. --'

i am 14.

almost 15.

still young i guess..

but still.. i have a right to do what i want, with reason. its not like i take advantage of my parents or anything like that.

its like..ninoshka do this. do that. dnt do this.

why are you going here?

who is going?

why do u need to go?

whats going to happen?

blahblah. and the questions go on. so much for the trust..

common. i have a mouth. i have the freedom of speech and of anything else. i choose to do the right things. but sometimes i dnt wna..jst coz i feel so controlled.

this one word. that says so much. is the reason i am now, at the age of 14. scared of so much. freaking hell. now im learning to look past those fears, try new things. explore. my life right now is so boring. and i dnt want it to be D: i dnt like it.

i feel left out. coz theres only so much i can do at times.. this is annoying. everytime.

its the same thing. you can do it when ur 18. freaking hell, feels as though my life beings at the age of 18. coz it feels like thats when i'll get my freedom. not like im trapped or anything like that but still..its important to

(sorry forgot what i was gna say and i didnt finish or publish at the time so im doing it now)