change.

okay. i must admit.

in life im scared of a lot of stuff.. but im learning and growing. and slowly that changes. im becoming more brave and facing stuff and yeaa.

idno. i wna move, if i can. to another school. to be honest, and most people already know. i never really likes mcauley..i was forced to go there. but when i met the people i did. and the friends i have now, i wouldnt change that at all. i wouldnt go back and take it back. i love them all so much, they made me like mcauley. they made it more bareable.

and my primary friends. how i desperately wanted them to join me at mcauley on my high school journey..well. i still do. and i miss them.

before. a while back. jst before school started this yr. i told my mum about some of my friends leaving, and moving schools next yr. and then how most would go to st marys. and then i told her about the school, from what i knew. lol from what my friend yohana always told me about, how good it was and stuff. but also in a way how different it is compared to other schools. and then she's like, why dnt u apply there? not saying u have to go. but jst to see if u get in, keep ur options open and stuff. maybe it will be better and stuff..

but that thought came..change. that i was scared of. but still. i wanted to explore my options and that.
talking to my primary friend now, and how she and some other friends are also going to st marys. makes me wna go there. and even how some of my closest friends are going there too..
only to see if i can do it. like be more independent and stuff..but idno. am i ready. im kinda scared. i could jst stay put in mcauley :/ maybe its not for me?

..but idno? :/