yes, another ;)

okay. im sorry its just that oth has got me thinking..
everyone has something unique and rememberable about them right? something that makes a difference..
well in one ep i watched today in oth. lucus, was dying. he had a heartattach due to his best friend being hit by a car, hist best friend, hayley was also pregnant..
anyways, wen he was unconcious he went with his late uncle keith. he died and keith was guiding lucus, showing him a life if he wanst nice. lucus is the guy everyone loves, everyone turns to for help and everyone trusts. he asked keith, whats the point of being nice? when all the nice people are always getting hurt. then keith showed him a life, a life where lucus wasnt nice..
lucus saw what this life was lyk and didnt like it one bit.. everyone was affected by lucus, for who he is. the nice guy.
without this nice lucus, the world was a bit darker, one of his dearest friends, and now one and only love, peyton dies, because of something lucus didnt do. but because he is the boy he was, she was saved, and peyton always says that to lucus.."you always save me.." and its true.
lucus saw so much more, it made him understand how being yourself, and not changing who you are because bad things may happen to good or nice people, you still leave a mark on the ones you love..
if u watch it, you'll understand what im talking about. i cant explain it that clearly so sorry. haha
and so that got me thinking..
what if i didnt smile? thats kinda selfish wouldnt it be? if i took that away from the world. and i no, i cant keep a straight face, guess thats a good thing right? but if something serious does happens, or a really am down or jst dno whats going on, then i dnt smile. or the worst times, when i just cant find a reason to smile.. but then theres always a reason to smile..
i tried not talking once, for a while at school. couldnt take it, and well, started talking again. you know what, i guess sometimes we jst need to be reminded i guess, of how much we are appriciated? how much we are loved and cared for, just lyk lucus realising how much he meant and did for everyone. you can really learn a lot.. more to say but idno.

i think sometimes we all should just see ourselves through someone elses eyes, so we know how people see you, because sometimes you cant even see it yourself? dnt undervalue yourself. just think first..?
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