reflection

wow. its november, already!
mann this year has gone heaps fast, and even thought im glad its almost over. i regret so much, looking back through the events of this year, 2009 and even most things that happened towards, i wish i took it all in. while i had the chance..

i remember the beginning of the year so clearly, i really do.
first few weeks were a shocker, finding out i was in advance english and science, i felt so proud. and first few weeks of school, i was also missing my friend, vianca. who was still in the phils. half of term 1 went so slow, at least thats how i remember it.
haha. but jan, feb, march and april were awsome! :)

january; i dnt recall much happening, or wait.. i think i do?
febuary; it was vanessa's brithday, and omg we went ice skating, hehe. my first time and omg it was awsome! so much fun. haha. i wna go again!
march; angel's brithday and dnt remember what else.
april; abby's bday and also i went to queensland, and ohh. haha i saw vanessa there :)
...

a lot happened alright. lol. okay. fine. in my head i remember most of it anyways, and i really miss it. so much happened this year, a lot of complications? :/ but i guess its also whats makes this year so unique? somethings i want and i try to forget, but i just cant.. ehh, oh well.

so the year went on, most days were better than others, i remember those days so clearly, lmao. still remember half of my friends doing 40 hour famine, woo. most of us finished ;) i did. hehe. mann its not easy, not one bit. haha.
.. those days, i wish i appriciated them more, because, well. i havent felt, idno. i jst fel a tad different now.. ? its hard to explain. i feel normal, but then looking back theres always that something more i want? lol. kinda hard, i dnt even understand myself.

and then lyk last night, i stumbleed across this pic of one of my closest friends from primary, i miss her so much! lyk she is one crazy girl, laughs at almost anything. haha. i miss being around them, all my primary friends. no matter how hard i try, sometimes i just cant help but wish and think that i was still that close with them. we went through a lot together, and now its lyk that was all nothing? idno. i just wish we all kept in better touch, so it wouldnt be so hard. jst looking at those pics, seeing them, brings back so many memories. and i went through a lot in primary, to make friends and that. kinda lyk high school, only with less help, and it was way harder :(
but i dnt wna sound lyk i dnt appriciate the friends i have now, im not trying to say that at all. its justhard to bring back so many font memories, when now, it feels lyk thats all ive got..

lol. got kinda carried away there. sorry. and id better end it there. should get ready.
until next time <3