i just dont know what to think.
im disappointed in myself. somewhat jealous too. im upset. sad. im thinking. im.. scared?

almost every time i get feelings like this i always end up being scared.
why am i scared?
because the future is so near..

(again i did a lot of thinking while on the train and stuff and i was going to blog..but i dont feel like it. lets leave it at that. woahh been listening to paramore all day. making me feel better i guess? its a good mood for the paramore songs im listening to.)

the weather mirrors my emotions. i was happy all day. until 2.25pm. and now the temperature is getting cooler and the sky is cloudy and grey..perfect..