here we go again..

I'll write you just to let you know that im alright

can't say im say to see you go..

lol dont you just love paramore..they have the words for everything :L hahhaa.

..well. the thought came and hit me, suddenly --'

i thought i was ready. lol vanessa, i bet you kinda know what im on about?

ages ago, dont remember when. but it was when everyone was thinking about next yr and stuff. and well i was sad. and then when you guys got ur reports back, and mann vanessa i seriously am still so proud of you and abby to and angel. 

..but like how when you got ur report, and then you were saying so happily that your going to st marys and stuff..and well. i cried --'

and like i said, im proud of all of you guys. like really couldnt be happier for you, but then you know me. and you know how i feel about you guys leaving. and i swear its not going to be a repeat of the last time..its not. and i believe that. but im say to see you goo..

and you can understand, just like i understand how much it means to you getting in and stuff.

its just weird how before it was just the thought of you guys going..i was still getting over the fact of angel going for sure..and now you two too. *sigh and then on fb, one of my other friends..used to be one of my best friends in primary, natasha. she also got into st marys. and then i see how its kinda like a repeat of yr6. like with the whole, your going and im staying kinda thing. well its different but still..and then how its so sure you'll keep in touch with each other, but it just didnt seem to work with me? :/ and im over it now. but it took me so long to understand. i get it. people check. yea i learned to accept that. but like i see you, and you have a best friend from another school. and you seemed to keep in touch with them without any trouble at all..and then how when we talk again, and have these random convos, bringing back memories..and then you have that hope and stuff, that feeling that yea were actually talking about meeting up and stuff..but it never happens.

sigh. lol sorry for that. but yeaa..

here we go again.. only this time it will be different. cause times change, and it doesnt have to repeat itself either..and im so not losing any more close friends just cause of the fact that we wont be in the same school anymore.. thats a promise i intent to keep, no matter what :)

i guess this feeling..will be coming and going till the end of the year, and it will take me some time to get used to..