sadisfied :D

hehe im so super duper happy right now. im in ist but i just had to share this. haha. this point i feel that everything is perfect and i dnt want anything to ruin my moment. haha. woooooo! i love my life right now. haha. had a pretty funny recess, i laughed so hard i was crying. mann i lovee my friends! haha. make my day! and i had a pretty awsome weekend. haha. yesterday i watched 7hrs of oc! wooo. thats was so cool, haha. and then at night i did my science hw, im so proud i actually did it all! :D im also pretty happy with how im going in school right now, lyk that phase i went through im over and back to work. now i actually wna do my work coz i no that im helping myself but also because i dnt wna have to have the stress of rushing everything. im proud of myself i really am and i hope to continue as i am now, only putting in more effort. i still have thoes school goals to achieve.
love it,
and in my head atm is that song im not sure what its called but it goes lyk.....
(8) feel that beat.....move...(8) haha. i dno the song seems really upbeat and ye, thats my mood. wooo. love love loving it :)
hope u have a lovely day ;)

oh do i ever..... :(

aww this afternoon i walked home with my lovely friend gabby as she now lives closer to me. woo i get to watch her new house grow (well be built anyways) haha. how exciting. anyways on gabby's street, the new one where her new house will be, there is this park and gabby and i just talked, about stuff and omg. primary, how i miss it so much! i really dooo :'(
you dont understand how it feels, being so close to someone for lyk 4 or more years and then you just go your seperate ways, not outa choice but because there is absolutely nothing you can do about it! :(
faaaaa i just hurt myself :( naww, kills.
but yea, its something that was really, really hard for me, seeing all my friends together and i was there, with no one! but thats all changed now, thankfully. thats why i call myself lucky, for now having the bestest and most awsome friends everrrr! lyk really, words cannot describe how thankful an greatful i am to have them!
bu ye gabby and i were talking and i told her how my best friend from primary lives just one house down from me, and shes lyk wow! and u havent seen eachother. naww. and i no, that seems pretty sad bu i cant help it. i make the effort to meet and make time to see them but it doesnt always work and I MISS THEM SO MUCHHH! :'(
and i told gabby how growing up i had kinda bad experences with friendships and stuff, and i guess that counts to why, now im so sensetive about that kinda stuff. lyk really, hah i cried, ness u no now? idno bu it scares me to think i could lose any of my friends, when ive already gone through so much, during my childhood of unstable friendships. :( but its all good now, well better that good. haha its AWSOME!! i love my life now, well my social life with my friends. :D
and i also love walking home with gabby and just talking, especially when lyk in primary even though i lived so close to my school i couldnt walk home with my friends and do that kinda stuff i can do that now. haha. its pretty cool, and even better on days lyk this. ;)
naww but lyk i no everyone changes, and i no i have coz as the people around you change so do you in some way? bu ye. i guess thats just the way it works.
na but also in my primary everying was lyk so simple and lovely and stuff lyk that you ddnt really have to worry. i dnt think my grade during priamry were sterotypical? coz wen i went to ur 7 in mcauley i learnt so much, haha. ddnt no a lot of people my age did stuff, coz well all the people around me ddnt so i probably just guessed everyone was similar? but i was so wrong.
lyk haha you could say going into high school everything was so new and i had an innocent mind, and then things changed. haha
naww bu even gabby sed lyk people do change and then you miss how thing used to be, but if u miss something that much you make the effort to get or bring that back, if thats possible? but yes anything is possible and i do not regret going to mcauley one bit but i so do miss them. i really do. :(
i really was so lucky to meet my friends i swear they are all so unique and funny and just the BESTESTT! haha. iloveyou all <3

kinda? :S

well, i kinda consider myself lucky, ive got a loving family and amazing friends. haha. today my cousins came over right, and they are lyk my brothers and sister. my oldest cousin, Dexter is in yr11 well finishing yr 11 anyways. and i kinda wanted to talk to him, but he's going to work. haha, looking outside the window i can see he is driving :L putting his L plates on the car getting into the drivers seat, he might be the one to teach me how to drive :D haha. i do love him. anyways he is a really smart guy, lyk i look up to him for advise and stuff coz well he's older and lyk i sed, a brother to me. so he chose his sujects for next yr already i think? and he now goes to JPII which is the 11 and 12 for SAC and lyk i think they have to have an interview thingo when they choose their subjects for yr 12? and lyk hes really good in math and was gna take 2unit math but then the principal or someone wouldnt give it to him coz he ddnt study at least one hour of math a day or something lyk tha but he was an excellent student so he wasnt allowed to get it. then in term 2 when people dropped out of 2unit math he was able to go into that class, mann sometimes teachers make is so hard. speaking of school, i should be doing my homework and studying for my math exam on tuesday which i am going to FAIL! omg im so lost atm with it all, tomorrow at lunch i think im going to go to that class where that teacher can help us if we have any questions coz mann i miss my teacher, its not easy remembering all the stuff u learnt when every lesson you have a different teacher teaching you, sometimes not even a math teacher.
i think my cousin knows what he's doing in the future? ahh time to think carefully about my career and that stuff :S
naww my cousins are so cute, not in high school yet and the funny questions they ask, my lil cuz noel, haha he's only in yr5 and he's lyk can i do science in yr7? :L haha. so innocent. and marilyn loves drawing so shes gna do V.A in yr9? but shes just in yr7 and learning so much. how times flies, you dnt realise how fast it goes until you look back and see how grown up you are?
well id better be going. ttly

its just.....

lol its just amazing how looking at one particular object or person can remind you of so much. isnt it? haha. well today wen i got home, i was surprised to see that my room was clean! haha well clean is in all of it not just one part i attempt. and mann does it look a bit better haha and i like things to be clean, even though im not always the one to clean. haha. i still do try. anyways as i was saying i found and saw some things i had from a while back and just looking at them i can remember so much. haha. and lyk even this t-shirt in primary i got everyone to sign. still have it. haha. naww i do miss primary! :(
but even lyk when i meet my friends, at times memories just randomly come up. lyk a time we did something together, i think thats pretty cool and amazing! haha. it all jyst comes back to you. haha it also makes me remember and treasure these items more, and realise how significant they are to me.

naww today in r.e we were talking about our memrabilia and lyk ye, u can find out so much about someone. unfortunately so many people in my class has lost someone dear to them, mostly their mothers :'( and then lyk we did this excersise and naww a close friend of mine started crying and then when i went to give her a hug and comfort her, she kinda ddnt want it. so i ddnt, i guess she just needed time?
wow mann, gabe bondoc has some pretty cool songs. haha. i love thoes youtube stars! sharing their talent and passion with the world. just lyk artists how they paint and show thier emotions through art n stuff? singers sing and share their talent. naww wish i could! :/

but ye...

well once again im watching oc. haha last disc, wooo. anyways, a lot can happen in a persons life, a lot of good and bad things can happen. a lot of things we regret too, but what if we regret the things we love or do? of that makes sense? lol, but ye. life is so tough at times, but then there are those other times where its worth it all, good and bad. so i guess you just need to hold on for the ride ye? and be prepared for anything :) but things are more easily said then done, so we need the people around us to help us push through it. and i guess wen we look back at those days we can just be glad i guess that we got through it in one piece? but its only natural in life that we have bad days, that we have good days, that we choose to remember or even to forget, its only natural in life to regret the decisions we make?.... life can be tough, i mean it is tough but isnt it all worth it in the en? to enjoy the life you live for everything it has to offer. i guess sometimes we, ourselves take our lives for granted but is that the way to live? it only takes one thing to make you realise what you have, what you've lost, what you could have had. we shouldnt always leave things up to chance but to take the chance to make something happen?
haha, i kinda dnt know why thins is coming out but it is and im letting it, somethings in life just happen. you can't make a bad day turn into something bigger that takes over you life,

you choose to live the way you do! no one can tell you how to live....?
somethings in life happen for a reason and others just happen but we shouldnt question or doubt ourselves just bacause of one thing?

idk hope its making sense, i swear this is all just coming out now. but it kinda means something to me, what i said. something i would lyk to live by, maybe somethings more then others but ye.... :) LOVE LIFE AND LIVE IT TO ITS FULLEST ;)

i learn and am influenced by so many people, my friends, family and peers and i learn something different from them all but no matter how different it may be it all makes sense in a way? lol i think? but ye, its important to let things happen but to also take control of YOUR LIFE? theres so much to live for, you just have to make thoes reasons or people count in your life?

haha ye i just had to say stuff so i did ;)

"LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT!"

yaya! :L

lol today was such an AWSOME DAY! woooo. haha, today was one of thoes, ONE DAY....

and yes haha i finally did it, i went to caps with my friends :) with my japanese class to be exact ;) haha it was pretty fun but tiring too... naww im watching oc atm :/

sad part here. anyways, my buddies today were lyk ness and vianca. haha THANKS NESS, for looking after me so well, haha you ddnt lose me :D yay, haha i ddnt doubt you and now i no i can be more then safe in the city with you guys :)

haha, so the day started off we caught the train from westmead to townhall. the train was pretty packed and i moved around a bit, haha then wen we got off at townhall, i stayed with ness, lyk really i ddnt leave her side wen we were walking to the museum. haha thanks ness, love you :) then we walked to the museum, omg i loved the artwork, i really love looking at the beautiful work that people paint or draw and display for the world to see. i wish i could draw lyk that, express myself that way but im not too good. haha. oh well, i can still enjoy looking at the artwork.

lmao at the oc. ahaha, gotta love seth <3
haha. funny guy :L

continuing on...at the museum, again i was with ness, haha its cool looking at the work with her, see other people's opinion on the art :) ye and omg we saw this really and i mean really beautiful painting on silk? called lanscape of the four seasons, in the asian art secion. omg so much detail and wow, words can't explain how pretty it looked. u gotta see it for yourself ;) so worth it. at least we think so. haha. then after the museum, i walked with vianca this time to the restaurant, it was pretty nice ;) haha. i ate with vianca and ness, woo pretty funny watching vianca eat rice with chopsticks :L then we got the chance to go to....naww ryan and marissa?

lol sorry, haha got the chance to go to that place, haha sorry forgot what its called. kinakunya or something? haha. and ye. looked around helped ness find some stuff and then we were done there.

next stop capitols! haha, walked with ness and abby, and kinda kristina too? lol marissa and ryan are always making out nowadays. haha. cute but kinda gross.

ye we got to caps and my first and only pictures were with vivien, ness, pris, doddsy, ruby, abby, naomi, leslie and vianca :) haha preetty cool place, and pics. haha then wen that was done, mann it was hot in there! haha then vianca and i went to play thoes things to win toys and omg i kinda wasted money, i promised sarah i would win her one but omg i wasted lyk 10bucks of hers and a few of mine, to win NOTHING! i swear thoes things are rigged, well the big ones anyways, i tried to win vianca and myself something too but no luck, i had it but it slipped away, i really wanted this cute monkey but it didnt happen. haha vianca got a few toys :L haha won by gayle ;) shes pretty good and sheryl too. so that happened and i wanted to take another pic but no time left --' oh well. i have many other pics. haha. then going home, after a trying day, i did not get lost and had a pretty awsome time. haha. train ride back with ness, so tired but the ride was quick? haha. then im home. lol seth :L

okay this post did take a while only coz im watching oc too, haha. and then i gotta do my homework and hope that some of my friends come to school tomorrow. ness....

so yea, haha that was my day. hope u had an awsome day too. ttly <3

mann time flies when ur watching oc, haha its so dark already, oh and did i mention today had such lovely weather? haha it sure did, really nice, and in the city too. :) gotta love

this country. ;)

give me a break please?

ok im not doing anything, at all. just waiting in the kitchen, next thing u no someone walks into me by accident? i dnt think so.
ahh its really killing me and pissing me off how my sister thinks she can just do whatever she wants and it goes. has to be her way, NO it doesnt!
omg. ahh, i dnt even fight back anymore coz my friend just keep telling me shes not worth it and that i shouldnt stoop down to her level. thats kinda working now but idk how long i can take this. and then i tell me mum, see what shes doing, i dnt do anything and she just annoys me. for no reason, ahh it just pisses me off, i stay calm and i think its doing me good. haha. im not saying that i dnt do anything, well i dnt anymore but its lyk im in my room, just laying in my bed peacefully and frkn she walks past and says, "im telling"
wtthh? im not even doing anything. omgggg. its really killing me, ahh i just have to stay calm and think about something different, thats what.
hope it works out? hhaa
anyways hope you all have a lovely evening, haha i shall blog again later tonight maybe? ttly. :)

but whyy? :(

ahh, my mother jst told me not to laugh in this house! wtthhh. thats lyk impossible for me to do, all i do i laugh. haha i love to laugh, if i dont laugh then im not ninoshka! haha. oh well. i dnt care, im still gna laugh. mann i really dnt think i can live a day with out laughing, haha. or even an hour? haha. i LOVE TO LAUGH! :L

not to sure?

ok now im not quiet sure what it means but, ye.
well, i dnt really know lyk i sed. haha, but lyk just then i was having a little recap of...well everything. and lyk i dno, somethings have changed, not quiet sure how or what but i no that something has. lyk wen i read over something that someone sed, or something lyk that, think or remember something that may have happened idno, things have changed and im not sure if its a good thing or a bad. right now im guessing its alright? coz nothing bad has come out of it right? so its all cool, i dno i guess im talking about everything in general?
sometimes when u get used to something and it starts to change u notice it right? well i dnt really know, haha. idno somehting just came to me. as u can probably tell this blog makes no sense at all, and i dnt really think it should. idno. ye just had to share once again? idno feels different, something does but i dnt no if thats a good different? :/
goodnight all :)

the ugly truth

okay, to be totally honest im dissapointed in myself, i really am. all of a sudden im getting this attitude in me, the "i dnt care" and "im not bothered" and i dnt want to be lyk that. today i ddnt go to school so i could catch up on my homework but sometimes i try so hard but nothing, im just not 'bothered' doing it. i am the one who goes to school, for myself. not for anyone else but to help myself out, i make the decisions for my future but right now im not doing myself any favours. i need to try harder and make the effort, i have to make the time to get the work done! i dnt no whats going on with my head right now with school but i need to work harder, i want to get back into the advanced english but am i doing anything about it. no im not! why am i doing the opposite of what im thinking, i want to try harder and make the effort but my actions towards what i think are the opposite, i need to change the way i work now, ahh! its so annyoing because i do want to do it but its not getting through. even in calss, im 'not bothered' doing my work but then at home im still not bothered! :/ thats not helping me at all, so im going to put in the effort in class, and change the way i approach my school work now. i have to make the change, or im going to fail! :(

just read ;)

for english i found this poem, it talks about overcoming a tough time and ye, the poem pretty much says it all. only problem how do i get it on here, guess i'll just type it out? :/

As I lay and watch you sleep, I thank God I have you to keep.
Things are a little tough right now, but I know they will get better, somehow.
We express words with such anger, knowing our relationship may be in danger.

There's been times we both almost called it quits,
aren't you glad we finally came to our wits?
Relationships start and sometimes fall,
but somehow love will conquer all.
I know lately we've been in an emotional bind,
waiting and waiting, just wanting to unwind.

This is the time in our relationship that we need to be strong,
talk through anything and everything that seems to be wrong.
When no words are spoken and the tears want to fall,
just remember we have each other, stand proud and tall.
Trials and tribulations are just what life sometimes brings,
Just always remember, these are only little things.

Tough times are in everyone's lives,
husbands, children and even wives.
It's how you handle them and where you go from here,
I will hold your hand through it all, and will have no fear.
I love you and made promises to you that I intend to keep,
for the love that I have for you is just way too deep.

So if you believe that we are meant to be,
put a smile on your face when you think about me.
Don't let this situation and stress bother us,
It's just petty, ridiculous and not worth the fuss.
One day when everything is all said and done,
We will look back at these times and be thankful we didn't run.

came to mind?

well today i had an awsome day out with my cousins, and my favourite uncle. haha. we went with them to an nrl footy match, tiger vs roosters! haha tigers obviously won ;) but anyways i sat infront with my uncle, in the car that is and basically spent the whole day talking with him! pretty cool guy ;) haha. anyways i realised one of the best things about having memories is sharing them.
and so in the car i could hear my aunty talking to a friend of hers about my mum and her other brothers and sisters when they were younger, the things they did and places and went and that sorta stuff. haha its pretty interesting hearing about that. and then i remembered all the awsome memories i have of wen i first moved to Australia and we lived with my uncle, it wasnt a big house but that ddnt matter, we were all so close. haha got into a lot of mischief? and had some pretty good times. haha oh how i miss thoes days, just spending time with my cousins and playing with them, learning new things, a big happy family. and thats what there were, more than just cousins but brothers and sisters to me as well, thats how we get along so well, we tell eachother almost everything. i do miss seeing them everyday wen we went to the same primary, but times change. we hardly see them now but when we do we make the moments last! haha.
thats what i love to do, remenise? with the ones you love about the things you used to do.....

The beauty of the past is that you can chose to forget what you want but choose to remember thoes extra special moments, the beauty of the present is that YOU can choose how you want to live it and the beauty of the future is that you can make the difference? haha. if that makes sense, once again when it was in my head it made more sense but i hope you get something outa it?

i love the present, linving in the moment but i also love rememising about the past and fanasising or dreaming about the future! :D

ahhh!

goodevening everyone :)
so i kinda just woke up, i was tired and cold so i layed in bed listening to music and fell asleep until my dad came in shouting my name so i changed outa my uniform and here i am now, haha still tired, dnt exactly get that much sleep last night :S i'd better make this quick, gotta lot of homework to get done? ah science, math english! :/
anyways ahh, i miss my cousin, marilyn, my baby sis. haha. i havent seen her in ages and ye she just msged me, HI! haha. naww i love her so much.naww i just wan give her a BIG HUG right now! i wish she was my lil sis. oh well, were pretty tight, still call eachother sisters. oh and then it comes to my real sister, if u can call her that anyway. dw ness im not going to say anything, just whats her freaken problem? aye, its not funny the way she acts, just going around to my friend asking stupid questions as if its any of her business :@ ahhh, pisses me off. and then before i was just standing here waiting for her to get off the computer and me, lyk i sed just standing, omg and she goes and says some shit lyk omg who do u think you are, blahblah. ah i dnt even bother waising my time. ok im sorry, i sed i wouldnt say anything but its not my fault, she needs new friends to teach her how to behave properly. she has NO respect for anyone in this house and i feel lyk.....ah....the lack of respect she has for my mum! shes never greatful. i no and who im i to talk right? im not all that good but she goes too far, lyk even i know when she speaks to my parents that.... ahh well. not important but what is, is the sacrifices they make for her when she cant even say a frkn thankyou, it makes me ashamed of the person she is, and upsetting for my parents to have to put up with her unexplainable behaviour time after time. even my parents deserve better, and i do try my best. so i just pray. oh sorry again :S i really am :(
oh. wow the sunset was so beautiful, the sky was lit up redish pink? lyk a bright colour and the clouds were ye the same colours. haha. gotta love our Lord and the amount of beauty He has for us in the world, only thing is we've gotta take the time to appreicate it, with all its beauty :)
haha. naww. im so lucky, i really am. ye lyk i sed last night i couldnt really sleep but i think it was due to something that happened? and a lovely friend helping me out, naww im lucky coz she told me the truth and naww its so nice to hear that so that i do no. ahaaha THANKYOU!
(8)im starting with the man in the mirror! (8)

(8) coz where there is love i'll be there....just call my name and i'll be there (8)

oh today doesnt really feel lyk a thursday coz none of my friends came over, when before the plan was that lyk 5 of them would come but oh well. maybe next thursday? hopefully, haha it really makes my thursday a thursday since we did it so often. haha oh i hope to watch my sisters keeper soon, not sure when. hoepfully with vianca? but i also wna read the book but ive got to finish my boring english one first --'
(8) you make me feel lyk im flying, and no one can stop me from feeling.....

well id better go? naww, ive got so much on my mind, need a friend to talk to. oh well, just get through another day i guess? ahh so tired i used to sleep so early and be actually asleep but no i just lay there until lyk 10pm or something and i dnt lyk it! i need my 8+ hours of sleep. haha.
seeya! :) and have a lovely night ;)

memories ;)

ok one of the best parts of life is primary ye? its ur first few years at school and stuff, you make friends, find out stuff u lyk and also learn a lot that will help you in life. haha well my dad works from home now and lyk we have a scanner and stuff, haha so i took the opportunity and scanned a few pics i found of my time in primary. haha. i do miss a lot of the people that i journeyed with bu ye, haha.

so here are some pics and i'll ye explain them. haha. please dont laugh! haha. unlike a friend of mine, vianca --'

okay now this was me in kindy, kinda my first bestfriends? ebony and ashley. i dnt really remember much of kindy so ye, bu ashley and ebony left after kindy so i was kinda left :( haha but i kinda still keep in touch with ashley, which is pretty cool. :) although i think this pic was taken in either 2000 or 2001? -->

<-- i believe this pic is from 2003? haha an excersion we wen on, to the wild life place thingo, used to be next to wonderland? naww i miss wonderland, whatever happened to building it in prospect or something? :/ haha the guys in that pic from left to right are, aaron, blake and jordan. then the grils next to me are, mikaela , emily and nicola. haha i can remember everyone :) haha. naww. the memories

ok now i believe this is in yr 3 or 4? thats Janai and paulina. paulina my best friend in primary since yr3 and janai who haha is such a sweet kind person, so lucky to have her as a friend. i remember that yr4 janai was going to leave our primary, sjv and i kinda got a bit scared, in the end she ddnt end up moving. haha. how cool, so ye but we kinda driffted a part in yr 5. still friends but not as close. and paulina, mann we did almost everything together, haha. she is lyk a big part of my memories of primary coz we were such good friends since i met her in yr 3, when she came to our school.

ok now we move to yr5! haha. these are a few of my closest friends, haha my 10th bday. we went to olympic park for a swim, haha i had the best time. haha. cant forget that! :)

so next to me is precious, ive known her ever since yr 2 wen she came to my school, we've done so much together and i remember all the cool stuff we did in yr 2. thats lyk the main yr we were really close, but we still hung round the same people. now i believe precious is a much different person? haha. i guess over time people change, kinda depends on the people their with? then near the window looking away is natasha, haha we r still good friends, she precious and i were lyk BFFLs ahaha in yr2! i loved yr2! it was so much fun :) then in blue is paulina, and next to paulina is gabby! haha. mann gabby is so funny, i remember how she used to cheer us up wen we were down, haha. just more memories...

this was in 06, our excersion to canberra stopped over at blue mountains? haha. pretty cold but fun. i remember almost everything i did there, :) haha too many people to name here but i can name them all! haha. oh but u should know, the girl in purple. haha looking lyk a little girl is my other close friend, czerina, we called her inah. she was lyk the best dancer and ye haha talented ;) and in pink coat thing is lenette, mann she was good at everything. haha. i think she still is? oh she had the neatest and best running writing ever! oh and next to inah is jj, jordan, lol she won

the voice of youth in yr6 and i think my friend abby was there, i remember seeing her, haha but ye, haha jj won and beat abby. :L lol. although i only remember jj's speech was on animal cruelty, haha pretty good.

now comes to today, haha 2009 can you believe it? haha. well these are a few of my lovely and dearest friends, who have helped me so much, being there for me in high school when i had no one! haha. the worlds greatest friends. dno what i would do without them. well in the pic starting from the top left and going left to right theres, angel, vianca( vijunca! haha), leslie, prisley.

gabby, me, yohana, sarah

ness, abby

haha i love you all so much! <3

ok so there you have it, just a little piece of my past, haha and i chunck of my memories from primary and also my friends. how fortunate am i? and i thank God everyday for that.

haha. well id better be going coz im tired and been on the computer a tad too long. haha. lol i still do have a few more posts but i'll do that some other time. until then...... good night ;)

im back :D

haha well im so excited coz i have so much to say and my net is lyk the best now and im fully watching everything on youtube ;) lifes great. haha. na life's not all about my computer or the net, i need to be less reliable on technology. but anyways i had an awsome day today, haha. but i felt as though i havent seen my friends in ages? idk. haha. lol i lyk spent my day with my beautiful friend ness, haha maybe thats why? oh well. i still had a pretty cool day, haha and after all the depressing clouds and grey in the morning now the sun in shinning, well kinda setting round about now but ye. nice. haha. lol told you ness, there may have been just a little blue before but if u focus on thoes little things that keep you happy and smiling then.....lol im not sure how to end it bu you get what im saying right? lol lyk now the sky is blu and its happy ness :D haha.
oh wow, haha im listening on youtube to aj and his new original? when we say (juicebox) haha. it sounds so good, i really lyk it. haha i love all his originals! ;)
hehe isnt life just so amazing, full of surprises but not all that bad, haha. oh wow. so much to say, only can i say it all? lol. i hope so ;)
lol something just popped into my head and ye, thought i might share.
when you wait for something long enough and then finally get it, or you don't have to wait anymore you kinda appreciate that thing you've been waiting for more and maybe also realise how much it means to you?
lol idno, something lyk that. haha sounded better in my head? :L haha.