lost?:S

losing someone very close or special to you is a very dificult thing to go through, for everyone.
a few weeks ago one of my beloved friends had something happen to her, this gave all my friends and i a real scare. as soon as i had heard the news walking upto the station after school, something inside of me just stopped. i got this really weird, sad, bad feeling in me and i got so worried about my friend. had so much running through my head, i dnt know what to think. i was so worried i even started to pray that nothing would happen to my friend and that she would be alright. anyways, thankfully she was alright.
today i got that same feeling, only it wasn't as serious as it was before. today in jap, another friend friend of mine said something, as a joke and wen i heard it, even though i knew she was joking i got that same feeling. i really wasn't sure why i even got it?:S well ye, so i had that same feeling but not the same thoughts at all, obviously not as the situations are totally different but i started to wonder why do i suddenly get this strnage feeling go through me when i hear something like that?
i think i know why i got that feeling, especially for my friends, its never happened beofre, the first time was that day with my beloved friend, and the scare all my friends got but today? idk.
the feeling was as if..... I HAD LOST A FRIEND?:(
i even felt lyk crying, and again, i knew that my friends were joking so idky that happened?:(
but as i do mention a lot, i really treasure my friendships and i would never want to lose a friend, if i get this feeling if something little happens to a friend imagine if something more major and serious happened!:(
i really dnt know what i would do. anways for some weird reason, right now and ever since going home on the train i have been feeling in a not so happy mood? idk....

oh well. id better get going with my english. i plan to finish it today;)