waste of time? :(

idk. right now i feel so lonley and well, sad i guess. there's no one online to talk to, or msg. all busy and im at home. doing nothing, so i decide to go on my sister's bebo and just see how all my primary friends are, lyk i sed before, i really do want to keep in touch but its not exactly that easy? is it just a waste of time?:S
idk. its so weird, we were once all so close and well, really good friends. promised to be friends forever?
but idk anymore. lyk on thursday, lol my two awsome friends, nessa and vianca came over and we love to go to the lake, to all my friends its 'our special place' and you gotta admit, it is pretty beautiful.<3 and i said i would shout them maccas. so we walked down to the plaza and i bumped into a few primary friends, its seriously been at least a yr since i really met them and well, idk. it was weird, there were my two friends who i love and see everyday and then another two friends, who i haden't seen in a yr or something and well we arent exactly that tight anymore? but i always wondered what i was doing. lyk i no, i really do miss my primary friends but i dnt really need them any more, haha ness, coz now i've really got
THE MOST AMAZING FRIENDS IN THE WORLD!
but i dnt even get why a change in school or something of less improtance lyk that could change so much? im still the same person i guess but just coz we dnt go to the same school anymore means that we can't be that good of friends? i just dnt get it. i've seen one of my friends, when she moved from one school to another, she still kept intouch with her best friend and they are still best friends? idk why it has to be diffrerent?
i should really just focus on the NOW instead of on the THEN or WHAT USED TO BE?
i am so greatful to my friends now and thankful for having them there for me, idk if i can say that the friends i bumped into would do the things that my friends now would do, i dnt think so anyway. we might just say a quick hello and then nice to meet you but there can be more, can't there? idk, mann i feel so.....sad. lyk really and right now the room im in is dark as the light is not on and it looks lyk its gna rain soon.
naww, and seeing all of them in picture from parties and that. idk, makes me miss what was our friendship before. it makes me think, kinda, i guess more about what would have hapened if we were all still the same friends, went to the same school? idk. BUT I WOULD NEVER REGRET GOING TO MCAULEY ANYMORE AS I HAVE THE BESTEST FRIENDS EVER! AND I PROMISE THAT I WILL NOT DO THE SAME THING TO YOU EVERRR!
i really do value and treasure every friend.
i miss our friendship:(

(damnn i did it again, in a hurry to get off the computer i forgot to publish this post so i even forgot what else i had to say--'. im really so tired of forgetting everything.:(
if anyone has a solution to my problem, please let me know, thanks;) )