blast from the past..

i still cant believe it, yr12 2010 are graduating tomorrow.
tomorrow will be their last day of high school..

my cousin is in ur 12, graduating.
then after him next yr is my sister.
the year after her is me..
1 year after me is my younger cousin
and 2 years after her is my youngest cousin.

so in 5 years my cousins and i will all have graduated high school.
just thinking about me graduating in less then 2 years is kinda scary..

and well i just couldnt stop thinking about it..

then today when i got off at doonside i saw like 7 people from my primary..some people changed. some people are the same. some are snobs :/
but well, i always dreaded on the past.
ive been going to mcauley for 4 years now and i have had an adventure never to forget. from the minute i entered the school it started, and today as the school made the shield thingo as the yr12 girls departed the school, leaving for the second last time. kinda. well i realised that when i leave high school in 2012 im only ending my high school adventure but starting one much greater than i can imagine..
i realised that when i offically graduate from school, well. i dont really know what will happen. my life starts, being a student you know basically what you do everyday, and that is go to school. imagine that huge part of your life is over, when there is no school to go to you have to plan stuff. lol well there is uni but again, completely different to high school.


...anyways. i stopped to go eat dinner and now i forgot what what i was gna say so i'll stop there..

so anyway.
today on the train. i realised how lucky i am.
to have always found such amazing friends. in primary but even now.
waiting for vianca this afternoon, and just talking to her. and then on the train. just vianca and i, it made me realise how lucky and fortunate i really am.
today i spent a lot of the day talking and thinking about the changes that are going to occur within the next few months. next week is a start. wait no. tomorrow is a start.
year 12 go. yr 11 become yr12 and we get ready for next term. after yearlies and after school cert. we will be practically going into yr11.
the journey begins. only this time it will be different, im not the one moving.
and even though im not. i dont want ness, abby or angel to leave either. but they are so yea..
okay. so during the yr12 muck up. at the end when they were all on the stage, so many of them were crying. imagine they spent the past 6 years together, and now theyr all graduating tomorrow.
and vianca started crying, like really crying. poor baby, i was sitting behind her and angel with gabby and sarah. and i just kept looking at angel. mann i have gotten so close to that girl, she is a huge part of my life, so is ness and abby. a huge part of my school life as well as my social and family. but my school life, today at lunch i sat with angel. and yesterday afternoon at the station angel and i were just sitting there, listening to music, her awesome ipod. lol and yea, im going to miss that.
just as i will miss all the times when vanessa does something hilariously stupid at school, those times when she cried. and i cried. the times where we just walked around the school, all those times we just talked.
as well as i will miss abby, the times in science where she is the biggest distraction ever. the times when she goes crazy with everyone else. the times when she has exciting news for me :)

all those times and more, many many more. see. contributed greatly to my school life. to who i am today. and well, the thought makes me upset but you know what, right now. im not that sad anymore cause i know at ur own high schools next year you will have heaps more to share with me.
telling me about your new friends. your new crushes. your interests. your changed life.
school is a big part of my life, it has been since i started kindy in australia in 2000..i remember so much. i love so much of it. and then there are times when i wish i didnt have to go..then realising how fortunate i am to have  an education like i do. my life is pretty easy. i have it pretty easy..

i love my life most of the time. i live life always. i smile a lot. i spread and share how im feeling if im in a good mood. and well.. days will go by. years will pass. but knowing that my life experiences in school alone has made me so much into who i am today, from primary esp with my priest and teachers. to my amazing friends at high school, damm im lucky to have had everything i have.

the clan as vanessa calls us, i have seen so many people change and grow, mature and well i guess i have to.

next year may be a challenge but no matter what, we will still all be together, in some way or another <3

(lol thats so not what i wanted to say but i forgot --' hahaha mann i had so much to say and i forgot..ohh well :L)
now to finish some school work --' joy :L how greatful i am :L