omg. i feel so crappy atm.
dnt feel like anything. and i feel so tired..the pressure is on already. faa my mum was like stop msging and focus on ur work...
omg it pisses me off, now im not in the best mood. cant even smile. :/
she doesnt know how much pressure i put on myself to do well, not only for myself but more for my mum. beacuse she is always like..i dnt want anything from you or ur sister. jst to get good grades. and look. i try so frkn hard. its only the frkn first day of the bloody year and already. yea i know i have hw. geeze i brought it home didnt i! and yea. i will do it. in my own time. when im ready. when im in the mood.
why dont parents understand. or even try to see how we, the kids/students feel. yea we get it that they go to work blah blah that they have to do so much around the house and are so tired..who says school isnt tiring. we have hw for almost every subject we have.
our parents are not the only people who have expectations for us. i have expectations for myself. and yea sometimes im dissapointed and know i can do better. but i know the difference..i know what i can do. what i am capable of...freaking hell. this is a place where i can jst let it out. you frkn come to the screen i minimise it. i dnt want u to see. freak somethings in my life i like to keep to myself. away from you. you see its not frkn work.."get off the comp if ur not doing ur hw!"
freaking hell. i wna leave this house! maybe im being dramatic. but atm i dnt freaking care! i feel so emotional im even tearing up. what the hell is going on with me?!
im so tired of my moodyness lately! i really am..please help it stop. i want to be myself again..and i dnt remember being like this.. :(
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