it pisses me off so much the way that people are so quick to judge!

im sorry blogspot. i have abandoned using it for a while. i didnt mean to. its just whenever im feeling really shitty, i dnt really get the chance to come on here and let it out --'

lately. i must admit. ive been moody. happy and normal one second. and the next. annoyed, upset and so pissed.

i really miss those days. i remember when i wasnt to emotional. and i was always wearing a smile. i always had a reason to.. now. not so much. there are so many things/people who do make me smile and cheer me up. but there are even more things. closer to home. literally. my so called family!

ahh. i wish.. i know im ungreatful and that. but i really do wish.. what my sister says was true. that i was adopted.. before everything was always normal and fine. but in the last yr. things have gotten worse? somehow idno how or even why. but it did. and my emotions just cant take it anymore. sometimes i dnt even know what to do. i pray. and hope. that everything will be alright. most of the time it is. but. omg! it pisses me off that anything and everything is balmed on me, sometimes for no reason at all!

ahh. i want to escape from here. and i cant wait to be 18! jst a few more years and more freedom..