:'(

im so tied of it all. im really losing my patience that way she talks to me. its not something i want to live in at all, yet i do:(
im on the erge of giving up. its just not fare the way im being treated and ive made my first move, we have a four bedroom house and im not sharing MY room with her anymore, im tired of all the insults and the teasing and the put downs i get i really rather live in another house altogether and if my aunty and uncle moved here i would, they are even giving me my own room, which im gna shar with eith my little sister or brother. im a human being that is treated lyk.....well i dnt really know what and wen i do do something in return for what she does to me then i get introuble. its just not justice, and then she says all this crap that makes me cry:'(
i shouldnt give her the sadisfaction of her getting to my emotions but its just too hard to deal with the things she says to me. i ty to old in tears, i clutch mm teeth and try not to but.....i even bite my skin so hard so that it keeps my mouth shut but that obviously hurts and i do leave the room, but its not lyk it happens occassionally when it doesnt, its a constant thing:(
im listening to my soldier but its not really working as much as it did before, im starting to wonder why i bother, maybe i should just take it all in? listen to her lying crap.
ppl thing theres more to her but thats all lies, shes a fucking......ah i hate it!

do i really deserve to be treated lyk this?