sac?....mcauley--that was then and this is now

Now this is something i've been thinking about for a while now. well sicne the beginning of year seven to be exact. sadly going into high school and starting year seven i was the only person from my primary as most people went to our fedus school.SAC. at first i wanted to go there so bad but now i'm so glad i ddnt in a way>I'm not quite sure why.I'm still thinking about that but I'm glad to go to mcauley .although it did take me a long time to realise this.i only just admitted to it lyk half way through last year?or something like that.

the thing i was dreading most was coming up! end of year.06. i hate the fact i would be going to high school alone. sac orientation day, a bit more than half of my grade was going there, i wondered what they would do there? if my bffls Paulina and Natasha and other friends would meet new people and they did.they told me all about it and the next horrible thing to happen was.....

My orientation day. i was going to have to catch a train! it was possible that i wouldn't have to do this alone but my friends weren't able go to, i even tried to help by giving them the application form-see how desperate i was to have a friend to start high school with. for weeks i would dread it.going to mcauley,an all girls school.if only i knew it wouldn't be that hard. but the worst thing was that i let that thought get to me, all my closest friends would together and i would be left out, not only from school things but social too. i make it a point that we would all promise to keep in touch and every holidays meet up at someone's house, it was something i could hope about, well atleast now that everything would change. for a second i actually thought it would work but things like bebo just made it worst, it was hopeless. i couldn't be the only one trying to keep in touch. it doesn't work that way, everyone has to try but now, even though we live minutes away from eachother we mostly communicate through msn. the only thing bebo did was make me more upset so i deleted it lyk half way through last yr and wen i met them a few weeks ago i was so happy to see them.like old times, the question was asked, something about bebo and i was like.....uh i deleted it lyk sometime last year. it kinda hurt that they would ask that, in a way that they didn't even notice but would ask me about it a lot, not that bebo even helped, so much for keeping in touch. but when i do see them i wouldn't really hesitate to say hi as they meant so much and the memories i have! and i don't hold grudges over any of my friends, no matter what they do. i just forgive and forget!

sorry bot that.kinda got off track there but its something i gotta say. something sentimental-lol ness. back to orientation day. i couldn't help myself. i could only think of the worst possible things happening. ok i walked into thoese school gates for the first time. dec.06. wearing my school sports uniform, the only thing keeping me hopeful was knowing the next school day would be back to normal. i would be with my friends and wouldn't have to worry about high school...yet! my mum knew how cut i was that i was alone and she tried to help me meet new people, lol she did but the person's grandmother she was talking to was daniella macediongle-i think thats how u spell it. but wen she left i was with my sister,looking around at my new surroundings, soon to be my school for the next six years. i was so worried and to make things worst.the bell went.....my sister and her friends had to go and i was alone.sadly something i would have had to get used to. but im not the kind of person who can just get used to being alone, to tell you the truth i hate being alone! the only thing i could do was walk to the tables where they were giving name tags and telling you what colour group you were in.for a while i just looked around. it was lyk kindergarten-even though started kindy in the middle of the year in australia but it felt the same, actually even worse because in kindy like no one knows many people and mostly everyone is friendly but in high school not everyone is friendly and if they have their own friends most likely they will choose to stay with them, so i will make new friends but not yet. i could see large groups of girls just standing around or sitting and laughing and talking together. something i would miss doing with my friends as they would be in sac. as i walked around i saw two girls sitting together, not really talking so i went up to them and jst asked can i please sit here? the girls were Justine and Pauline. Justine said yes but when i did sit down she left.i felt kinda bad and confused too. lyk she didn't have to let me sit there but to leave wen i did sit! thanks justine.naa jks you've changed.lol. i think this was at recess but i can't remember all that clearly. i couldn't take being alone so i walked around and then decided to go to the toilet until....

the best part is coming up! yaya! lol.......

as i walked past this big group of girls sitting at a table, two of them started following me.hehe sounds funny doesn't it? well now we do laugh at it...... i think they liked called me over but i dnt think i heard them so i continued on to the toilet.the were lyk wondering where is this girl going?haha. then they followed me and stopped me.they were kind and friendly enough to ask me if i would like to sit with them.mann i felt to hapy but awkward at the same time.they all inrtoduced themself and we started talking.i ddnt know but i think i talked a bit too much.lol they told me they were kicking each other under the table. ooopsss sorry guys. but im glad u were so honest bot the things u did and thought of me in yr 7!

ok now for the happy part in this story of mine. well i also realised that in some way or another, maybe in the tinyest details some of my new friends reminded me of my primary school friends? and i also noticed that i think it was vianca and justine or some other people were in the same yellow group as me! then it all started to go up hill from there! which made me feel good. the next school day, back at primary, i told my friends about the wonderfully friendly people who came uo to me, it felt good to say that i had made some friends even though i dreaded that day.=D and also they gave me their msn addresses. well majelle and vianca, although i don't really think majelle gave me the right one? anyways i was sad as graduation day came and well, we were now in high school. the only thing i could hope about was that vianca, majelle and their friends remembered me! and the weirdest thing happened! in the holidays when i went to get my school uniform, guess who i saw? majelle and vianca were there too. leaving, they had also got their unoforms! i thought wow! what a coincedence!

Now the first day of school was okay, they did remember me and i found out that vianca and justine, arianne and a few other people were in my year seven homeroom! so most of us did japanese and had all our classes together. something i missed was doing my group assignments with my primary friends and even that in primary my best friend's work was always somewhere near mine. eg. behind,next to,opposite, under my work. and our names. it was kinda freaky but we got used to it. now year seven- the sadest part was whenever we went on an excersion- i missed sitting mext to my best friend on the bus. i either sat by myself of a teacher would see a vacent seat next to me and sit there --'. so it was pretty bad.

i can't believe now how close i am to all my friends, since year seven-well not that much but since the end of last year. and now i really couldn't be happier with the great and funny friends i have now. i've learnt so much from the beginnig of year seven till now still, that everything happens for a reason. and yes i value and treasure my friendships. they mean a lot to me. like i sed in recent posts that people change and im happy with the person i've become and the things my friends have now taught me, and helped me thoughout! i'm so glad to have gotten to know all of you better and thanks for doing what you did on orientation day. now i really don't know what i would have done without u guys to be there, well i would have friends lyk with the people in year seven homeroom but it would be different. it's also such a small world as my best friend in year two- precious was lyk leslie's best friend in kindy and one before she came to my school. and also that vianca and inah are family friends in some way? but that's kinda freaky isn't it how everything worked out? but im so gald.

THANKS to some special people i went home, having something to start my school year with.friends in some way? some people were genuinely friendly since day one and i thank you so much.to all of you.you may not have realised what you did for me on orientation day but it meant a lot to me that you did approach me.=D and now i couldn't happier with the person i've become, in more ways than one.I would just like to say a HUGE THANK YOU! TO ALL MY MCAULEY FRIENDS, ness, vianca, gabby, angel, abby, leslie, pris, sarah and yohana for making my first few years of high school so much fun, also for teaching me so much and for always being so honest. I LOVE YOU ALL! xoxo