this song has been in my head all day i think?
well when i was having a shower and thinking..this song suits my mood atm.. im not too happy or upbeat or anything and even better this weather is dragging me down...ima make this post quick cause i have stuff to do but well
*sigh
i have so much on my mind..and i wish i didnt. the pressure. the decisions. the responsibility. the stupidity. idno whats going on with me atm, but last night gave me a reality call D: big time.. idno if it is just the weather. or the lecture i got last night. or the crying. or just one of those 'phases' i go through these days. these phases i hate. i really do D:
...skip skip skip.
i was thinking a lot. and well. this week is going to be almost the opposite of last week.. instead of having people over or going out everyday i will be at home..by myself.. and im not really the kinda person who likes being alone a lot of the time but i maybe this is what i need right now. i dont have fb either for the moment so i'll be more focused. idno if im going to loose my mind outa boredom or all this time to myself will make me even sadder but i need time to think. i need time to be independent for my benefit and sort out the stuff in my head. :s mann idno seriously hearing myself say this is bad enough..putting the words into actions will be hard but i will learn. and i can do this. for me.
..too much is happening now and idno if i'll cope. not too sure what exactly is going on, praying it will be alright. :/ maybe it will..
i guess i'll be chasing pavements this week than..but i wont give up!
..one thing i do look forward to is soccer tomorrow. i love how i love soccer and its like a distraction too and its fun and i love my team and everything really gets me to relax.
..but its true. i miss the sun. wish it comes back soon..
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