FAIL! D:

you knwo whats worse than other people disspointing you?
.. you disspointing yourself!

faa. i really did try this term. it hurt so much to move down in english classes, from advance to standard but then frkn hell! getting this report hurt even more. theres not a single frkn grade to smile about. i frkn tried so much, so hard to move back up. and even worse, instead of doing better, i did worse! :'(

i was so sure, sure that i would get a good report. and i no, its not the end of the world. but it is something i have to show my parents. and i know i CAN DO BETTER. only, what they see is the frkn letter on a piece of paper. mann. im so pissed, at myself. i could have done so much better, but noo. i didnt did i? :l
i no i need to try harder, i no i can do better. and i WILL. next year. omg. and this report will give my mum even more reason to get tutoring --' for science, english and math! and i dnt want to. im gna be so busy next year, coz im even signing up for soccer with angelica! :) im excited about that, ive wanted to join ever since my cousins started playing, and that was lyk in 2002 or 2005? but yeaa. finally. haha.

and now im kinda worried, my mum too will be disapointed and well. i hoped that i would be able to go out these holidays. on friday too. and omg on thursday is my sisters 16th bday party. even thou her bday is in january, its just coz everyone is elsewhere --'

dispointment surrounds me..once again. only difference is that this time, its my fault.. :(
great way to end my school year of 09 isnt it?